I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
keskiviikkona, tammikuuta 03, 2007
because the wind blew me the other way
as if my body is on clockwork, i woke up at 6 today for prayers and found i couldn't sleep again like i usually do. a total break from my usual nocturnal habits, and it has to be more than a coincidence that its on the first day of school.
since i couldn't sleep anyway, i did myself a huge favour and went to the library, now that all my fines are cleared. its been ages since i stepped in there, so i was a bit lost. i betcha all the people there thought i was some crazy-ass lost tourist or something who likes to visit heartland malls and libraries.
i also happened to forget how much the library makes me wanna go insane because i always want to read everything, and i can't. i can't possibly borrow everything. i tried a different strategy today and got some books to read while there, but unfortch, i couldn't stay focused on one book and drifted from shelf to shelf, drooling slightly at the sight of some other tome that my heart skipped a beat to see. i must have looked like a fumbling lunatic, taking and replacing books on the shelf repeatedly. haha
so in the end, i borrowed books went home and slept. its been ages since i last took a afternoon nap, so now i'm a bit dazed after the 3 hours.
i hope i'll get employed soon, the job opportunities aren't too bad either, so we'll see how it goes.
and i sincerely hope it doesn't rain.
marlz
1/03/2007 10:25:00 ap.