I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
torstaina, marraskuuta 16, 2006
smells of the holidays
yea yea, so the A's aren't LEGITIMATELY over right. (omgdness, i totally had a Edmond moment. you know Edmond in King Lear? that whole soliloquy where he contemptuously repeats the word legitimate with disgust)
but today did mark the day where i finished all the "heavy" papers. tuesday and wednesday were econs days. which wasn't too great.
and then today was human geography, and the fact that i see mr chen's smirk in my head whenever i mention the subject doesn't really help. i wasn't too worried after completing the paper, BUT my worse-than-me-worrywart classmates got me worked up a little over my answers. i thought i had worrywart tendencies, looks like i'm not the only insecure one.
so i've decided to conveniently drop the subject (haha, geddit geddit?) of success in the A's for now. and focus on the fact that tomorrow and next wednesday are actually days when i get to sit for papers that i LIKE sitting for.
call me nerdy but i do find enjoyment in doing the Gothic and the Unseen papers. nevermind the grade, which you can always worry about afterwards. i've found out that i did like those papers since the block tests this year. so i'm a geek. shut up.
so the relatively fun papers are coming up, and then its the free for all kind of fun that makes me go mad.
so anyways, i've also decided that while it would be wonderful if i ace the A's (God willing), its also more important not to be too crestfallen should i not ace them. i've a more important test to pass : life. so too bad A's you're not a big a bully as you thought you'd be. i've got bigger fish to fry =)
lalala. premature celebrations anyone? i badly wanna go on this kayaking expedition this saturday, and i hope someone can join me! relive the OBS days and all. wonderful. if not i think i'll have to go alone, but i suppose it'll be fun all the same. if only it isn't too sunny, a tan is the LAST thing i want right now.
marlz
11/16/2006 03:29:00 ip.