I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
perjantaina, marraskuuta 03, 2006
the beginning of the end
so the A lvls came. crept up and scared the hell outta me.
by the way hudzy-wudzy, i LOVE you for calling me on wednesday *muacks*. after the last time, i thank God i have friends like you, and nursila and whoever else called and sent messages to make sure i turn up!
that day jacob sent me a message saying all the best which tickled me pink. 1. because he sent the message. 2. because the message is "all the best" and not the conventional "good luck". made me remember his reaction when i wished him good luck for O lvls and he made me feel rather nonplussed. he said : "i don't believe in good luck" haha. thank you jacob for being a super duper friend!
so anyways, besides again being shown what gems of friends i have, the other lesson i've learnt from GP is never to take anything even mildly caffeinated on the eve. more specifically, during the later half of the day. trust me, you're not gonna get much sleep and caffeine kills your sleepiness even more. i slept only 1 and a half hours or so before GP.
another thing is, not to take a nap in the afternoon. you will, and i repeat, you will not be able to sleep.
despite that the paper went fine i guess. i wasn't too happy about the AQ. and the summary as usual. the language question went ok, but i'm not too sure about whether i managed to discuss everything that was supposed to be discuss.
at the rate i'm worrying abt waking up and doing the right things, i'm gonna turn into a female version of gerard blonde way. (i think he looks gd with the hair, though i still prefer the dark hair. maybe he tuned into SI during a freak moment sometime and saw paul twohill therefore deciding it was time for an image revamp!)
20 more hours of papers to sit for. 8 more papers to my freedom. and then its time to relax
GOOD LUCK everyone
11/03/2006 03:25:00 ap.