I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
keskiviikkona, elokuuta 23, 2006
cos the teevee men told me so
i'm gonna be random again. i know i'm always random. its positively idiotic, but SORRY, it happens cos i'm a random person. and cos my hair is brown. haha
1. blessed is she that finds a man who is her best friends, her confidante, who understands all her plights, who is sensitive and who is willing to go shopping with her. cos she's found the one, and all that's left is to find out if the man is gay haha.
2. i totally fell in love with hady mirza's rendition of lagenda. very very very very very very nice. i haev a think about ballads in malay. for me they work only in malay. ballads in english are cheesy and bad and so uncool. therefore only ballads in malay for me please! and only certain singers and types lar, nothing too jiwang.
3. i liked the erudite cell session on thursday, but to be awfully frank, i was quite uncomfortable with having to face the fact that the topic was very much centred around religion. religion for me is something very personal and therefore, i don't quite like speaking about it. especially when it comes to criticism of islam. i mean, really, i feel like shutting my ears and telling people to shut up. and especially when people ask me about the middle east and all the scuffles amongst the jews and muslims and christians. i'm sorry but i'm not comfortable because of the fact that i don't like talking abt it. anways, that topic has been so exhausted. i'm so tired of hearing all the criticism. i'm tired of people asking why those people fight because you know what, i'm not part of that fight. i'm not them, i don't know why they create bombs and blow planes up. don't complain/ask/whatever. i don't like it cos i'm very close minded about religion.
4. i realize not many ppl know about the teevee men myth. that's interesting. cos i thought it was POPULAR myth.
5. my very active imagination has led me to many different places this week. unusual activity in the cranium, which is what i like to call it.
6. sometimes i feel my head is tuned into fairytale mode. because all i ever dream about is fairytale land. its interesting though, cos justin once told me that my life seems like a story out of an enid blyton book when i talk abt the orange rolling incident, and the snow and the blueberry picking and stuff in finland. i don't think its as glam as a fairy story though, especially when its winter and my hair is static because of my hat that my grandmother insists i wear. i don't like hats. give me cold air, now!
7. i like funny advertisements, but it seems as if they don't happen very much in singapore. i remember most clearly the turun sinappia one last year. and sonja making that impression of the shopkeeper in it. darn it was funny.
8. i am craving lakrtisi jäätelö. which coincidently, you CAN'T get in singapore.
9. i need more sleep
10. i really need more sleep.
11. its the school end and i don't really feel that sad. its funny how the farewells are all going on and i don't think much of them. maybe its because i'm not very good with farewells at all, and i feel very much that the "hype" (if indeed you can call it hype) over leaving is very much overly done. and i feel guilty for feeling that way, but i don't see why we need to make a great event because of it. quiet and nice is always homey and the best way to do it. that's my opinion.
12. i hate verbal tussles with my parent's simply because they never listen to what i have to say and everything is shot down. none of my reasoning works. that's why its always best not to tell about things that are important, because your decisions will be questioned and if not agreed with, will be shot down without giving you an opportunity to defend yourself. to put it simply, verbal tussles with parents suck.
13. this is a good number and i shall stop here.
marlz
8/23/2006 02:29:00 ip.