I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
tiistaina, heinäkuuta 04, 2006
being a j2
being a j2 entails fretting over your results. it means you have to sacrifice your social life, and your time to study instead of sitting down to watch the breeze rustle the leaves of the bamboo outside your incredibly hot and stuffy classroom.
i know that its just past the midyears but and this might sound super unglam but
BLARDY HELL!
look at your school calendar guys. being a j2 in meridian means that at this point in time we have exactly 2 months of school before we are sent off on the study break. and then its prelims and then its farewell assembly and then its revision on your own and *insert menacing sounding music of choice* the A levels.
so fast so fast so fast time has slipped away, and i had the impressions that A levels were far away. i don't recall my O level year flying as fast as this one. maybe cos that's O levels and it seems far easier, on hindsight.
being a J2 means realizing you don't have much time left. and omygoodness we don't. die.
and another thing that has made my day seem bad was the paper 8 exam today. looks like its not gonna save me this time. i swear the lit teachers are out to slaughter us this time. and then in the prelims they are gonna slaughter us, bury us and exhume our bodies just to slaughter us all over again. heh. so much for having a paper that i actually looked forward to.
marlz
7/04/2006 09:20:00 ap.