I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
torstaina, kesäkuuta 01, 2006
i'm irritated
irritation is borne out of being annoyed. vexation is borne out of irritation. anger is borne out of vexation. destruction is borne out of intense anger.
sometimes i don't understand how come some people don't bother to be nice and smile and bear it. is it really THAT hard to do? really, sometimes i let my irritation get the better of me sometimes, but at least i always try really really really hard to suppress it before i show how irritated i am. sometimes i pretend to be irritated out of jest (and had people believe me haha) but i rarely EVER show display irritation in the face of others.
thats why i don't like it when i hear people snap at other people or say things without thinking properly of at least who may be in earshot, but more importantly, whether their comment is really right and fair. i don't like it when people snap at me or use that irritated "i think you're doing things wrongly cos i want it done this way" tone on me, so why should i do that to anyone else, its only FAIR that i don't and its selfish if i do. call yourself brutally honest if you like, but however you term it, it isn't a virtue. and what you say may not be particularly hurtful sounding to you, but hey, haven't you noticed that the tone of your voice counts? if you don't like something, then state what it is or pull out NICELY (not in that arrogant i'm-better-than-you-so-you-don't-deserve-my-presence way), don't order that it be changed for your liking. if you're not capable of that, at least pepper your speech with a "please" and a "thank you".
its my theory that really displaying your irritation is remarkably unglam and conflict provoking, particularly when its over something really teeny like a place in the queue. even i would oppose and speak up if its over something like being denied basic human rights but even then, i would ask nicely. its also my theory that its people who are unable to ask or state nicely their request who are most prone to being aggressive in the negative way. and that most of the time, this happens if they are amongst a group of people who are exactly like them. and when that happens we have intense anger, and if it gets worse, destruction.
it does pay to be nice you know. you get a nice answer, you get a nice deed in return, and people treat you nicely (most of the time). and even better, if the person you are talking to is not used to being asked or treated nicely, then they'll just become so shy that they'll be nice right back. and thats why i'm irritated with irritable people and this is the first and last time i shall say this.
be nice people. pretty pretty please =)
marlz
6/01/2006 09:22:00 ap.