I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
keskiviikkona, huhtikuuta 05, 2006
still annoyed
this is an attempt to salvage whatever scraps of thought may be lingering about in my head because of some inconsiderate people that i live with.
i've read king lear over again and realised i've not annotated as much as i should have, and not picked up on little threads that are there that could prove useful in better understanding the play. i've clearly not analysed enough. pardon the usage of this word but the passages are overflowing with ideas that should have and are begging to be looked at. but, heh, i played last year away, so lear was not done well.
still love lear despite that, AND that is a good thing cos i won't have to drag myself through the text like i did for MOU. interesting bits are only in the middle for that book. and now that i think about it the whole thing is quite ridiculous and mildly cartoon-like. haha. have to read it to understand what i mean.
AND i'm proud to say that i've started on revision for rocks and landforms, and coastal. all this inspired by baya, who takes geog. we were talking abt geog (as i do with most j1s who take geog) and she was saying that they were learning about some force pull down and then never move (she phrased it in that way somewhat). i was quite annoyed with myself because i saw the diagram in my head but could remember the term, UNTIL a few moments (a migrane, some sweat and drops of blood) later, when i realize that it was shear strength and shear stress. the agony. realized its time to revise.
the only subject i've not started revision on is ECONS. but i will, shortly (i hope).
today was otherwise quite a bad day. tired today, thinking about tomorrow. and the days to come. and also thinking about other things. i just got angrier and angrier, and soon people started to ask me why i looked sad. shrugged it off and said i wanted to go home. i realize i get increasingly silent when i'm frustrated or sad. and i find i need my space to think. its the bad part about being me.
hrmph. i'm annoyed now over something that i feel super guilty over.
whatever. i just have no life at all now.
marlz
4/05/2006 01:55:00 ip.