I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
torstaina, huhtikuuta 20, 2006
politics
i don't understand why people don't like intellectual discussion. i don't understand why people think it is abrasive, and that it spoils relationships.
i happen to like them, thats why i like writing my gp essays. i cannot say that i've actually disliked any one time when i was given the task of writing one. on top of that i relish writing lit essays. i'm given free reign to write as i wish. and i appreciate that i have a voice in essays.
today in the library vanessa said that gp is coming up with clever things to say. i feel thats true to a certain extent but i don't think thats all there is to it. sure, you hvae to come up with "clever" things to say. but if that were totally the case then wouldn't "smart" or "clever" people do well in it. i don't think its fair to say so. loads of people who aren't "clever" have the capability to and in fact, really do perform well for gp, and lit as well.
to me its more of convincing the reader that your view is not radical, and that is valid in every way. its a process of discussing the various aspects of a topic, stating your views, examining and critically analysing other views, and then giving the reason why your opinion is valid and most accurate to you. it isn't just coming up with clever things to say. that implies that it isn't your personal view. shouldn't it be your personal view, your own feelings, and viewing things from other perspectives that ought to happen? saying that it is merely a "clever" way of putting things is to me, a huge understatement. (no offence vanessa, just that the comment got me thinking. i do understand your feelings towards gp =D )
well, its not just that. its also that recent report about the dialogue session with mm lee, and its participants being rude. i despise that word, rude. they were aggressive, definitely, but certainly not rude. looking at the situation, i felt that they had to express their views with passion and conviction, so why shouldn't they? it was a no holds barred DIALOGUE. an intellectual discussion. just because they were curious, and were for alternatives should they be considered rude? i don't think so.
besides, the idea of someone being "rude" is very subjective. what i might consider ok might be rude to someone else. maybe its just a bad case of different perspectives, that caused things to get ugly, and for people to point fingers and accuse. come off it already, what they were discussing was JUST THOUGHTS. thoughts don't hurt anyone, should they be expressed. and i think they should. why keep thoughts locked up in your head. and if they expressed with passion and conviction, so be it. what i would consider rude is a personal attack on mm lee himself, and accusing him of being a bad leader. i'm sure, as much as they are in favour of alternatives ways to doing things, the participants are VERY MUCH AWARE that Singapore stands as it is today because of mm lee and his joint leadership with the other ministers in the past. he did good by Singapore, and there's no denying that. what was being discussed is the future. what affects them.
i sound very pro debate and discussion. why shouldn't i? who wouldn't want to have a voice for their thoughts? it is partly the reason why i blog. if i kept all the thoughts and feelings to myself, my head and heart would probably burst, and i would be a very miserable girl. its to keep me preoccupied, and relief my mind of stress every once in a while. better doing drugs of smoking if you ask me. what is a bit of blogging as compared to that?
on a ligher note, mr low said that our group's thought fox essay is stylistically good! and that if we continued writing the essay in that way, it'd be a B grade essay. isn't that nice? made my day, and thats good since its the first lesson!
oh well. my head is now empty and i feel sleepy. goodnight everyone.
marlz
4/20/2006 02:04:00 ip.