I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
keskiviikkona, huhtikuuta 05, 2006
annoyed
i absolutely HATE IT when people insist on using the computer when i'm on it. for no particular GOOD reason. especially when they INTERRUPT MY WORK. and MY THOUGHT PROCESS. and then they FREAKING USE THE TRUMP CARD ON ME WHEN THEY KNOW I'M POWERLESS.
ITS DOUBLE STANDARDS. I'M ANNOYED.
I HATE IT WHEN YOU CLOSE ALL THE WINDOWS WHERE MY WORK AND RESEARCH IS ON WHEN YOU WANT TO GO CHECK OUT YOUR FORUM. (for what reason i don't even know. heck, i don't even know why such a forum exists. because CLEARLY you don't use it to discuss what you SUPPOSED to discuss. instead you GO AROUND DISSING OTHER PEOPLE on it)
and if you're saying this is awfully juvenile THEN GO AHEAD.
cos you know what. i deserve to be juvenile. i'm WORN OUT having to put up with childishness on your part. WHY CAN'T I BE CHILDISH AND INCONSIDERATE FOR A CHANGE.
if I were to interupt your work, you'd YELL THE ENTIRE HOUSE DOWN. and you accuse me of being inflexible and impatient?
DOUBLE STANDARDS
if I were to ask to use the computer for awhile while you're tinkering about on it (fixing as you liked you call it) you'd PUT ON IRRITATED AIRS AND SHOUT AT ME NOT TO CLOSE YOUR WINDOWS. and yet everytime i let you (EVERYTIME, mind you) use the computer while i'm doing my work you go and close every single window that i have opened.
DOUBLE STANDARDS
if i were to stand behind you waiting for you to finish your work so i can get some time to do some LEARNING you'd ACCUSE ME OF BEING IMPATIENT and speak to me as if you wish i wasn't there. and yet when i am using the computer you need to use it NOW and not wait until i finish.
THATS DOUBLE STANDARDS. AGAIN.
and you can't attack me, don't you DARE ATTACK ME because of this post. this is MY SPACE and I WILL VENT AS I WISH. this blog and this persona here DOESN'T REALLY CARE WHAT YOU MAY THINK OF THIS POST. so there
finally after a day of intense FRUSTRATION, AGITATION and CRANKINESS. i feel release. now i'd like to post about what i was thinking about in the first place.
IF ONLY YOU HADN'T INTERUPTED MY TRAIN OF THOUGH.
irritating. its amazing how some people can never learn some consideration.
4/05/2006 01:38:00 ip.