I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
tiistaina, maaliskuuta 21, 2006
day 2 of block test
second day into block tests. so far has proved to be what i expected, with a few mistakes in prediction here and there.
i can't decide on how i did for geog. i knew that for the drqs i was still going strong, until i started on the urban geog drq. after that things got worse and worse. i did the erosion qn, which i think only bev did. luckily i could still remember that it was corrasion, attrition, solution and hydraulic action. whether or not i got the definitions right or all the the explanations out right, i don't know. part b was ok though. at least i had SOMETHING to write. the same cannot be said for the urban geog parts. everything was either half done, i left part b of the essay completely blank because of lack of time, and i was rushing to complete the drqs on time. argh. i don't know what to think. i'm angry that none of the urbanization models came out. all my studying for models was in vain. annoying.
lit paper 1 was tough frm the beginning. not because of content, but more of which qn to do. i wanted to attempt essay, but afraid that ms k would slaughter anyone who attempted essay, i did context. found something to write, but i found my heart wasn't into the essay. i just kept of feeling this regret that i hadn't attempted the essay on justice and mercy. studied those themes too. darn it. for lit paper 8 i attempted the prose, something that i usually would never do. i like doing drama but couldn't deduce much from the drama and sheer number of characters in that one passage nearly killed me. never knew what was happening in the text. scrawled something on the paper and made it look as if i was abt to attempt the qn, but i moved on the prose in the end. was shorter than i anticipated. i wrote quite a fair bit.
econs was a train wreck. the mcqs seemed easy at the first part where everything was mkt structure. UNTIL i started on the other mcqs. national income stats. most of it was familiar, but the calculations killed me. half the time i got one of the mcq answers without even knowing how. heh. case study was WORSE. i wrote utter nonsense. 6 pages of it in fact. don't know how i did it, when i don't even know what i was writing. essay was a relief. mkt structures, my fave! didn't manage to complete it though, i was writing and writing like the world was about to collapse me if i didn't. and i only drew one graph. dang it, i ought to have drawn more graphs. schematic plan was a mess. in no respect does it looked planned. looks like an un-plan if you ask me. hrmph.
so i've complete most of the block tests, not to pleased, yet i was kind of expecting something of the sort to happen. gothic is up on thursday, which i hope will be easy, cos it happens to be the only paper that i've scored an A for in assignments. which reminds me, i got back my gothic assignment today, and was rather exasperated that i had a 17/25. which meant that i missed the A mark by 2%. same for lisa. bad bad bad bad. at least i didn't score a D or C, if not i would have been super demoralized. before the actual paper. then again maybe dr s wanted to give everyone a moral boost. our whole class seemed to do well. oh well.
i remember in finland once listening to a song my unklubi by the name of näiden tähtien alla. didn't quite like it at first. then it grew on me. now i've stumbled across the music video for the song huomenna on youtube and i think the lyrics are really beautiful. fancy me liking finnish rock bands, but hey i do! no going back now i guess. it started with rasmus, then HIM and now uniklubi, i wonder who else i'll start to like. if only there was a way besides youtube to gain access to such music. i must be way behind the finnish people back at suomi. i don't think i'll ever develop a liking for nightwish though, they aren't my cup of tea, even if kati likes them and tries her hardest to psycho me to like them.
vaikka meille annettaisiin koko avaruus
vain hetki kun sen saisin katoamaan
vaikka maailma eteeni polvistuisi
sen vain saisin palamaan
ja huomenna
taas huomenna olen surullinen i like the chorus part of huomenna most. nice =)
marlz
3/21/2006 12:48:00 ip.