I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
tiistaina, maaliskuuta 14, 2006
bestie
saturday night was one of the best nights i've ever had. i finally let go, i finally talked, i finally had someone to rely on.
i realize that in the midst of my hustle and bustle that comes with being a meridian and an mjcsb member, i've not been able to successfully keep in touch with the besties at prcs.
especially with my bestest bestie, mr eric liaw da fu. it wasn't just the whole meridian thing, but also being absolutely traumatized when i called him sometime last year for a certain reason.
i'm glad things have cleared up. we chatted in the exact way that we did before poly, before jc, before the o's and before any other things that have come our way.
it just started and wouldn't stop and lo and behold it was 3 am, i was yawning, and he was telling me to sleep. haha.
you know you have a best friend somewhere when they call you up after a long time and scold you for not calling them, and then forgive you and tell you that they miss you.
you know you have a best friend somewhere when you are able to pick up where you left off, even though its been eons.
you know you have a best friend somewhere when they remember your habits a clear as a bell, even though you've not met them in ages.
you know you have a best friend somewhere when they ask you about things that they know plague you and that you care for and know exactly what to say to you to make them go away.
you know you have a best friend somewhere, when no matter what,
they still care.
i'm glad i've got best friends out there. eric, huda, oke, ranjani, mastura. i haven't forgotten any of you, even if we haven't kept in touch in a long time.
3/14/2006 03:57:00 ap.