I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
lauantaina, tammikuuta 14, 2006
fridays
friday was a draggy day. it really was. anyways, it wasn't that bad, just that i felt some people were off spirits. and that someone asked me a really terrible question before lit, which i felt most angry about because after i answered it, the person's reaction was quite annoying. and don't even talk abt the long long long break in between that made me start to nod.
but as i said, it wasn't that bad. loads of things were good about friday. my OG asked me out to lunch with them! so nice. and i found out that so many of them are applying to be ogls. i hope do become ogls. they are such nice people. then james came to find me during lunch cos he was afraid he didn't know how to play the circles of four. and then later i went to check out the ice cream shop and found out that the ice cream flavours are quite nice. i won an ice cream voucher from mr chen cos i answered his question correctly during geog tutorial (though i think he has forgotten abt it already). we had cake to celebrate the jan babies birthdays, which is inclusive of marilyn, justin, muhadher, alan and me. i realise all of us have been on groups one time or another. either for gp or for pw. then we had ms k's tutorial which was fun. and the best was band. where i saw chelsea and juliana. so fun.
so yes friday wasn't such a bad day after all. just terribly long. haha
i received the loveliest package in the mail today from isoäiti and säsä. the outside was rather tattered but the inside was very nice =). it consisted of licourice tablets and candy, a very nice calendar, a book abt narnia's wisdom in finn. and the bestest thing about it was the last present. The Kalevala in english. i've been searching high and low for it, even tried getting it over the net. but it was nowhere to be found. and lo an behold when i opened the package, there it was, brand new and untouched. i'm so happy. i don't have the teeniest idea where isoäiti and säsä got it from, and how word reached them that i was looking for it cos i didn't tell my sister about it. but i love it. bedtime reading tonight is not going to be adele or silas marner. i'm finishing that book first.
some background info for you if you've never heard of The Kalevala. it is a great Finnish epic, which was part of the oral tradition in Finland and Karelia in the past, but was put into print by Elias Lönrott. it tells of Väinämöinen and of his mother, the water maiden. its hard for me to understand old finn, though i suppose its been modernized over time, but even then i'd have a bit of difficulty reading it because of some difficult words they use that i don't understand. i've never studied finnish lit, so i wanted the english copy so i could read it and study it in that way. i wish i could be like Aleksis Kivi and Elias Lönrott and make Finland proud one day by writing. but first i'd like to study them and know in detail about their works. a mini project of my own, that i intend to finish hopefully sooner than later.
i've already read some of the first few chapters of The Kalevala, and its nice! entirely in verse, of course, because it is actually songs and verse put into print. a little sample from the chapter "fate of aino", abt aino, who is unwillingly pledged by her brother to the ancient väinämöinen because he lost a duel. this is after the news of her drowning reaches her mother, and she weeps for her daughter's fate.
When the lone and wretched mother
Heard the sacred cuckoo singing,
Spake she thus, and sorely weeping:
"When I hear the cuckoo calling,
Then my heart is filled with sorrow;
Tears unlock my heavy eyelids,
Flow adown my, furrowed visage,
Tears as large as silver sea pearls;
Older grow my wearied elbows,
Weaker ply my aged fingers,
Wearily, in all its members,
Does my body shake in palsy,
When I hear the cuckoo singing,
Hear the sacred cuckoo calling."i shall not gush about The Kalevala any more after this i promise. its just that i've been looking so long and hard for it. =)
i hope next week will be as nice as this week was! till then.
marlz
1/14/2006 12:31:00 ip.