I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
perjantaina, joulukuuta 02, 2005
emotions
you know i'm sad when
- i ignore you and don't talk to anyone
- i look depressed all day, yet tell you everything is ok when i don't look as if they are
- i avoid everyone and sit by myself somewhere isolated until late into the evening
you know i'm happy when
- i don't know what to say
- i have the faintest teeniest smile on my face, and when you look at me directly i'll flash you a humongous one
- i'm breathless and i dance around to the places that i want to go
you know i'm angry when
- i tell you not to piss me off
- i walk away mid conversation
- i look angry haha
you know i'm stressed when
- you see tears running down my cheeks and don't know the reason for it
- my hair is a terrible mess and i don't even bother to make it look decent
- while doing work, i frown and suddenly give up and storm off
you know i'm contented when
- i hum to myself some band song
- i crack lame jokes and call you names
- i happily decide to do econs homework and clean my room
you know i'm lonely/pining when
- you see me hurrying home, and taking pains to be alone even though i'm lonely
- a nod, a shake, an odd yes or no is all you'll get out of me when we converse
- i stone during class/band prac/lectures/recess
3 people i want to do this lil quiz
- vanessa tan guan hui aka i love the ulu tam-pines!
- ms huda who lives across the street from me (because you owe me one for doing your quiz some time ago)
- cherri =)
12/02/2005 12:53:00 ip.