I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
torstaina, marraskuuta 17, 2005
vilmanstrand
yep. the date is set. my sis is leaving for finland on the 28th, which might or might not clash with a band prac, depending. if it does, i just will have to rush down for band after seeing her off. if that's possible.
perhaps next year after the big A's i too will head down to vilmanstrand for a visit. it will definitely depend on my choice of higher education. preferably, i'd like to study in finland, simply because its so much cheaper than university in singapore. lets rephrase that so you'd get a better picture of how much cheaper it is. the tuition fees in university are fully sponsored for by the goverenmnet. if you STILL don't get it, i mean that schooling is free even at university level.
whether or not i'll manage there or i get to study what i desire is another matter altogether. sure, i may be able to converse quite fluently and read and write in finnish, but i've never actually tried studying a subject in finnish. except for perhaps my brief stint in the finnish supplementary classes i took at overseas family school down at patterson road. even the IB that i attended in lyseo was fully english, though most of the time we'd lapse into finn. i have to say that the history lessons at lyseo were superb, and the content was very interesting. i miss antti and his weird hairdo and wacky personality already =)
then again, there is always the sibelius academy, where i do believe i can fare pretty well, considering that there aren't many clarinettists around in finland, and that i love performing and music in general. they don't have many wind bands or wind orchestras, meaning less wind players around. that means that i'm in demand. but then there's fees to talk about and not to mention, there isn't competition for me, which is bad, because i like competition. it makes me push myself that much harder.
oh dearie me, it seems that i am in quite a fix. its either finland or singapore, and i can't seem to be able to make a good choice. it has everything to do with those little bits of metal and paper that we rely on so much. why can't money just fall from the sky so that i'd hawe a much easier time settling my schooling issues. then i'd be able to pay for what i want to do and actually do it.
guess i'll just have to push the decision making aside for a teeny bit longer, even if its terrible to do it. meanwhile i've been surfing the net for information on finland's demography. couldn't find the demographic transition for finland, but i did manage to find the population pyramid and also a graph for the amount of greenhouse gas emissions from finland.
is it me or am i actually starting to miss geog lectures and tutorials?
anyone with empty bottles (plastic) please contact me asap ok? i need them for logistics for MMM. any size will do. thanks!
heippa then
marlz
11/17/2005 06:53:00 ap.