I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
sunnuntai, marraskuuta 06, 2005
OP tomorrow
yep, the day has arrived. OP is tomorrow
i got the shock of my life this morning when lisa called and she couldn't speak at all. not a single word. all i heard was someone breathing down the phone and some attempts at speaking. and her mom called me
marilyna. i digress. but thank goodness she is so much better now, and very confident about tomorrow. i just hope she sleeps early tonight and gets her rest. if all goes well, we should be fine tomorrow.
i went for a proper band prac at last aft all the buzz of the first days of hari raya month. it was so good to play as a band again. i realise i'm so much softer, so i must catch up or ms sia will scold me for not playing loud enough or not practising enough. it was also very nice to meet with my band mates again. i miss band! but i think i shall get a hefty load of it in the weeks to come. genting trip is coming up and i must do my utmost to make sure that i sound good and support the band on that day. and especially that i don't press that stupid key at the side by mistake and squeak! terrible. i hate squeaking but its happening ever so often now, because of that darned key.
oh, invited my whole section over to my hse for hari raya and i'm gonna invite a whole load of other ppl too! i dunno how i'm gonna cope with so many people coming. i realise i also gave the wrong date for them to come, cos i've ogl camp on that same day. bleah. should have told them another date. hopefully it'll work out.
talking abt ogl stuff, its been quite ok so far. i was terrified that i'd be left out because i wasn't an ogl during the O2 this year and i wasn't here for the first 3 months, but its been working out fine. i was games ic that day and i think my game kinda flopped for the first two groups because there were so little people so in the end i changed my game here and there for the other groups and it went a little better. i felt i did relatively ok, especially since isabel, who was supposed to accompany me, totally did not appear until after the debrief because of op. and judging from what i hear from you mei, the camp should be ok too.
i'm really conked out because of all the activities on, so pardon the really bad entry. just did it for the sake of blawging. =)
marlz
11/06/2005 04:01:00 ip.