I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here

I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.

As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.

Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.

But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.

To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are

<3 M

lauantaina, marraskuuta 26, 2005

lazy days

i want a lazy day! i haven't had a single one during this holiday. eveyday has either been alhena meetings or band practices or even if i'm at home, cleaning and cleaning and more cleaning.

i want to loaf about on the sofa and have the curtains blow over the tv screen while i'm watching until it irritates me and i have to go and fasten the darn thing.

i want to sleep in the living room because i'm comfy and i'm too lazy to move a limb.

i want to wake up afterwards feeling the warm warm 4 o'clock sunlight making my skin tingle, and then smile broadly at the sky and try and identify whether there are cumolo nimbus or cirrus clouds.

i want to fold clothes while sitting on the rocking chair and be the world's worst goof ball until my family tells me to shut up, get lost, or do both.

i want to read my geog text because of a lack of anything more interesting to read and because i've finished reading all the national geographic magazines on my dad's shelf. all 300+++ copies of them.

i want to sit and dream of better days where we have an unlimited supply of oxygen, water, clean energy, when earthquakes can be predicted and and population problems in the world, be it under or overpopulation is solved =)

i want to sit staring blankly at the wall and then start humming all the songs i've ever played over and over again, just to amuse myself.

i want to yawn, curl up and fall asleep like a cat does, as an when i like it during the course of the day.

i want to go for a leisurely spin at pasir ris park, or ever better, all the way to changi to my favourite spot and let the sea breeze tousle my hair and tickle my ears.

band prac killed me today. i got home and i dieded on the sofa in the living room. i even turned down my parents' offer to go out with the rest of the family for dinner. instead i stayed at home, and fell asleep in the living room with the singapore -laos match blaring on tv. and then i woke up with cramps because i was in an awkward position. how boring.

i remember jonjon sometime ago with this on msn " ooh is that a life? where can i get one?" haha. looks like its high time for me to ask the same question.

oh yes. a bit of an announcement. all alhenians please pay me $3 asap. or i'll hang outside your home everyday begging for the money. haha. fear me people.

there was this incident with a crazy man in the bus home aft prac yesterday, but i shall not talk abt it. i've now learnt that its best to have a buddy to accompany you on the bus home, no matter how short the bus trip may be. i nearly had a heart attack on the bus and i literally ran off the bus. thank gdness the bus driver stopped me and told me to get back on. it wasn't even my stop you know. nice people are very nice =)

scrape that last statement. it doesn't make any sense. its because its 1.25 am and i'm high on urbanization. don't even talk abt revision, because i haven't started on anything else but geog. ok maybe a teeny bit of econs. but that it.

and i miss jake. he wrote this really long entry after a long long long stagnant period that very nearly reduced me to tears. thank gdness i was too tired to cry or i might have.

i want my lazy sundays and lazy days back. grrrr...

i'm too conked to make any sense. so i shall go and sleep now. take care and heippa

marlz

lauantaina, marraskuuta 26, 2005

lazy days

11/26/2005 04:48:00 ip.

links

archives

credits