I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here

I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.

As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.

Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.

But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.

To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are

<3 M

tiistaina, lokakuuta 11, 2005

von bondies

i thought that the last paper of the promos would be the easiest. NOPE. not a chance. it wasn't exactly that the paper was difficult. it was because the hall was so cold that my thinking was impaired, my finger couldn't bend, i had the most terrible time trying to grip my pen and write. how to do exam when cannot write i ask you? vexed. utterly vexed with myself and my performance.

the econs paper wasn't too bad, just that i forgot what nominal and real definitions were, i only remembered the formula. and i had momentum. but all for what? only to be lost to the air surrounding me during the later paper. first thing i did was dash out of that frozen hell and straight to the toilet. terrible.

the weekend was great though. i received a rather disappointing email from who else but jake-a-boo! who told me that we had to cancel our outing because he was heading to thailand. oh well. another time then. i CONFIRM am not going to forfeit this outing. CANNOT. must meet must meet must meet.

besides that the weekend was great. number 1. i learned how to fry tahu, though alot of screaming is still involved. must learn how to get rid of the screaming.

number 2. i took weird photos with my brother with turned out weird cos he looks like a red indian and i look like an eskimo. if not for the similar features and expression, you'd never guess we were siblings.

number 3. me and my brother rediscovered the song helena. =)

number 4. i fell in love with a song from the von bondies!

number 5. i acted like a lunatic. its fun =)

number 6. i told got jealous because tiong li is got to go watch micheal buble in concert and not pay a single penny. and i swear he gloated! why why, am i and micheal just not meant to be? =(

number 7. i had heavenly sleep.

number 8. säsä asked me to send him a postcard

many nice things about the weekend. and that was only after geog and malay ao. wonder what i will do now since the promos are officially over.

i was trying to search for the uniklubi musicvideo rakkautta ja piikkilanka. no such luck. just have to try and get my hands on the cd instead. and if ppl think that uniklubi is bad, try nightwish. thats a band i CANNOT take. its just too eeeee... at least uniklubi has mellower songs like näiden tähtien alla. see, they aren't that bad.

oh and you know you know, the rasmus has a new album out which i so want to get my hands on. i want i want.

unlimited wants, limited resources. haha.

the jukebox in my head has been alternating between jaded by aerosmith, and noah's ark, at the song of hope onwards. band is going to take up my time yet again. have to regain my former tone or an improved one which would be much better. and i pray that my breath support has not changed at all! i was barely getting by with it, being new to the bass clarinet and all. darn. more hard work just when i want to relax. but its fun, so nvm.

i can fall in love with books again! the liberation i feel is just so overwhelming that i feel like the wide wide roaring sea. powerful, untamed, free.

to huda, i'm here for you. we'll go watch a horror movie and scream our guts out ok?

and to vanessa, you're hair is pretty, don't fret about ppl like AH LONG, who have NO SENSE OF STYLE. some ppl ar, rather idolize freakshow Duke lookalikes that sweet looking girls like you.

and to the rest. enjoy your freedom while you can. PW and AO MT is about to descend onto our poor unprotected heads. somebody save us...

toodles~

marlz

tiistaina, lokakuuta 11, 2005

von bondies

10/11/2005 09:05:00 ap.

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