I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
maanantaina, lokakuuta 31, 2005
HATE
i don't think anyone can understand the rage i feel right now.
after pondering abt it, i don't understand why religion is such a volatile issue to discuss still. most of the world's dominant religions are peaceful ones. maybe they aren't the same, and don't have exactly the same teachings, but i don't think any of these said religions teach people to kill and to hurt other fellow human beings.
so since it isn't religion at the root of the problem, then what is? my take on this issue is that its a lack of tolerance and discrimination between different groups of people that causes the current rift between different societies.
i hate the fact that all i hear on the news these days are of bomb blasts and terrorist threats and everything to do with people getting killed. and half of those people aren't even at fault. they act as the sacrificial lamb for these terrorists to prove their point.
and the thing is, i don't quite get what is their point. do they want money? hardly, i don't think anyone could use religion as an excuse to gain wealth without being stoned to death on their way to prayers. power? freedom? simply to be heard? what. just what is it that they want. i don't know. perhaps its a mixture of everything. and it only makes the situation more frustrating because one does not know exactly what made these people decide to kill hundreds of people and take away their human rights in the blink of an eye. in the name of what? religion? i say that is hypocritical.
i particularly despise that most people think that terrorist is automatically equal to muslim. i find it unfortunate that some of my fellow muslims believe that killing people is the right thing to do and think that it is in the name of islam, particularly now, during ramadhan. however, i don't think that it gives anyone the right to generalize and discriminate against muslim people at all, or to call us fanatics. i'm talking abt a particular country here. i think these people are totally ignorant. and hoity toity and arrogant. AND then they have the cheek to discriminate against anyone who not only is muslim, but comes from asia and does not look chinese or jap.
its annoying. i'm just toally sick of the destruction and seeing the world crumbling. i want so much to believe that there will be better days ahead, but i don't know if there can truly be such days if such problems persist. i'm sick of turning on the telly and hearing people crying for their loved ones, or screaming in pain. its heart wrenching. and then i hate that muslims are viewed as peace destroyers and have twisted views of religion. 911 only gave an excuse for the world to blame someone, and because that someone was muslim, all other muslims were dragged down too.
how can i give a daily dose of love, if all i see and hear in the news is a daily dose of hate.
i wish people had more sense
marlz
10/31/2005 01:13:00 ip.