I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
tiistaina, lokakuuta 18, 2005
agora?!
i got rid of a number of things this week.
1st on my list was that ugly thing dangling on my guitar. as i went closer i found out it was a string that snapped. need to get my baby restringed. the strings lasted relatively long, which is 1. a bad thing because it means i've not been practising enough, and 2. a good thing because it means that i've taken good care of my guitar. see, it can work both ways
number 2 was my friendster account. its become positively redundant. i don't use it because other ppl do to surf here and surf there. i also dunno where ppl surf already. better just delete the account. i tried to, but the stupid thing said my email was invalid. even better. sooner or later, the thing will delete itself. so GOOD. that kinda stuff is for ppl who have a lot of time on their hands, like i used to.
number 3 was the dust in my room. i vacuumed it all away. so now i have a nice dust free shelf and table. abt time. i believe some things were gathering cobwebs. like my o lvl music stuff. my mom was asking me whether they could be disposed of and i think i gave her a look as if she had just eaten my brother. cannot. o level music notes and scores will stay with me for as long as the paper can last. it will only be disposed of the natural way. meaning it has to rot away before i throw lar. its just too precious
number 4 were the clothes that i don't need. all give to the blue bad ppl. now i've loads more cupboard room.
number 5 was something that cannot be touched, smelt, tasted, heard or seen. =)
must think of what to get rid of next. its almost like therapy you know.
congrats to kati on her new tattoo! its uber pretty...
i am now as sleepy as froggy girl was at band prac just now. better get some sleep. toodles~
marlz
10/18/2005 02:13:00 ip.