I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here

I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.

As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.

Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.

But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.

To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are

<3 M

perjantaina, syyskuuta 23, 2005

letting off steam

2nd post in a day. i need to let off some steam so shoot me.

had a mix up today during school. yesterday i told mr tan i was going to come for econs consultation, but it turns out i had already booked a lit consultation with ms lim earlier, so i cannot pang seh her. i think he's kinda pissed cos he saw me with ms lim while heading to class AND anand took a green form so he couldn't come for the consultation either. how unfortunate.i am quite annoyed over the entire thing but i just had to keep the appointment that i booked earlier, so it was a matter of having no choice.

well, that being done with, my head is about to explode and start spewing blood and brain juice. think krakatoa without the sulphur and pumice flying about. when it happens, it'll be off the scale. but i'm trying to grit my teeth and hold on for now. i need to do more analysis of measure for measure, so that i'll be slightly ahead, bt i think my "slightly ahead" means left behind by the rest of the class. i'm trying my best to move at the fastest speed possible while still maintaining an efficiency level and make sure my brains doesn't have a profitability that is less that my cost during the exams such that i will fulfil the shut down condition.

DARN. i'm rambling.

one thought i generated during my stoning on the bus this morning. if i were to describe my 3 a lvl subjects as slopes, they'd probably be of this form.

geography : an alternation between rectilinear slopes and free face rock walls. everytime there is a slope that you overcome there is a steep one to climb that will cause you to feel as if the slope is never ending.

economics : a rectilinear slope with a rather straight bedding plane, of a substance that has a fairly steep angle of repose. you just have to keep on climbing, despite your exhatustion, because if you stop moving, you'll prolly slide down as promptly as lisa on a curved bedding plane.

literature : not a slope, its the darned Himalayas. all you can do is stand there in awe since its so sublime, but you never know whats coming your way since it is ever so distant, though it looks as if you can brush the very peaks with your fingertips.

if that doesn't give anyone a clue on how my revision has been going, then don't tell me since it i'm just too zapped to care.

i got my geog project that i slaved over back. we got an A! so.happy.

i realise, during my second reading of measure for measure, that i felt as if i was watching a madhouse production during the provess. the most important member of the crew would be one of those circus hosts with a black top hat, long dark cloak, candy cane striped knee length socks and a whip in hand and who has a special ability to blend in with the wallpaper from time to time (the Duke).

then there'd be a group of drunken pirates with a wicked sense of humour who stagger about, seeking to deflower tipsy young maids dressed in white lacey dresses (Vienna's community).

i can also picture seeing a rosy cheeked woman dressed like a shrew, walking around with a grey knee length veil perpetually trying to hide behind some shrubs while she talks to you (Isabella) and a rather snooty man with an aristocratic looking nose who quotes the bible to you at every possible opportunity (Angelo).

in the background, i pictured a head rolling with a grin plastered permanently over it being kicked like a soccer ball by a lady who vaguely resembles the statue of liberty, just that she's blindfolded. oh, and there's a man selling prunes and popcorn, with a lot of hysterical laughter, circus music and a group of nuns who pass by as if they are crossing the road who sigh heavily, shake their heads in disapproval and start to pray for the people's souls.

i have proven that i have the weirdest imagination.

toodles~

marlz

perjantaina, syyskuuta 23, 2005

letting off steam

9/23/2005 01:47:00 ip.

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