I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
lauantaina, syyskuuta 10, 2005
beetle juice
for no reason:
lets sail into the sunset so far across the sea. where the sun-kissed and rosy hued butterfly blossoms grow for all to see. where the sweet pea droops so softly against the emerald tinted leaves, and a still, pale lake lies awake awaiting the dewy morn.
lets build a boat of moonshine, beautiful, golden and gleaming. with sugary light that fails not to fill our hearts with joy. the breeze so fresh and shimmery as it fills our sails to brim, and we sail upon the soft beams of the rising moon in the cold and salty night. with crisp white sails a-billowing in the deliciously fragrant wind.
lets sail into the sunset where smiles are abound. and little girls in cotton frocks trip gaily across the shaded forest ground. where lilting strains of violin is heard all night around. and mothers with their sleeping babes smile at the plaintive sound. where december tears that fall in sadness bring merry flowers in spring. and faerie lights on midsummer's eve with the stars lie twinkling.
lets sail into the sunset, just us,just you and me. where our sorrows are hidden in black and purple pearls. and where we'll play april showers beside the gurgling brook. lets toss our sorrows to the air and smile like we've no worries. and sail into the land of sunset where we all belong.
gosh. i wish i could sail into the sunset. but i can't, and so i've to just be content with watching it. lisa said that i write poetry, but if i do ( but don't since i never have the guts to) then i write a real screwed up version of it. some parts rhyme, some parts don't. just random paragraphs, like snatches of random tunes from here and there that mean absolutely zilch. i hardly think that it qualifies as poetry. *sighs*
i forgot to tell about our outing to the new national library with 6 other classmates on thursday. did weird stuff that ppl our age don't and shouldn't be doing. and we walked around parco for awhile. then i went home while the rest went to tampines to "loiter" some more. twas nice, since its been the longest time since i'm "strayed" our of pasir ris. always been holed up at home. or at some relatives place. or school. i wonder where i could get a life.
my ankle is givin me problems again. i've sprained the same side a couple of times before and i guess its taken its toll. its annoying me bcos the teeniest movement can make it hurt, and i've no idea why. maybe its become loose. *frowns* perhaps i should get it looked at by someone. no knowing whether it'll help or not, but at least i could say that i've tried right.
i'm gonna try my recipe for hiekkakakku, or translated literally, sand cake. hope its as nice as the one i tried during christmas. nothing else to say, seem to be very woozy today for i don't know what reason.
well then, toodles~
marlz
9/10/2005 05:33:00 ap.