I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
tiistaina, elokuuta 16, 2005
home?
i let my blog stagnate and i haven't complained in a week or so. utterly unacceptable! cannot, i must complain. its the one thing singaporean about me that i cannot get rid of. being a complain queen. hell, i even got a load of friends into trouble over chewing gum because i complained about them. funny how seriously i took my duties in SC. i miss SC. but i wouldn't wear the new tie for a million bucks. seriously, it looks retarded. sorry folks, i'm trying to be honest here...
anyways, COMPLAIN!!
complaint 1 : my stupid white patch on my wrist is not gone. i even see the white glowing light from that area when i try to sleep. and it distracts anyone sitting next to me during lecture. so much for hoping that school would somehow even off the tone. darn darn double darn. so now i have to go and tan my wrist. thanks to the plastic flag waving and screaming your lungs out on a hot hot hot day in the sun (have i told you it was hot?). terrible
complaint 2: i hate it when the phone rings off the hook in my house. its always kring kring kring kring. God, its driving me nuts. i mean i don't use the phone. my friends call once in a decade (ok, so you can take this part with a generous pinch of salt) and all the phone is used for is useless chatter on my sibling's part. like hallo, i'm the babbler, not you two, so stop stealing my job.
complaint 3: me and samuel called it quits on the caveman and barbarian things. despite the truce i just can't help having the cav... spill outta my mouth when i see him. must untrain myself when it comes to belittling him. my current target is ah long(that flagpole look-a-like so poor thing lar), but looks like i have to change that soon.
complaint 4: ITS SO DARN AWKWARD. argh...
*takes a deep breath*
complaint 5: there's a geog test tomorrow during the first period AND we're having this discipline talk during the morning assembly that is , without a doubt, going to eat into our test time.
and the mother of all complaints : jon johnson got kissed by some aunty on national tv and got into a hot tub with a whole group of them!!!! *runs off to have a nervous breakdown* i mean seriously. what happened to marilyn and me?!
told you i was a complain queen. for those of you who actually survived until here. congrats, cos i'm not going to continue. am i kind or am i kind?
went back to visit crestwinds today. man, i love my band. the juniors aren't bad, a pretty good bunch of kids, leaning a wee bit toward the mat and minah side, but good ppl with spunk. thats what crestwinds needs. a load of spunk, in a good way of course. i must motivate them to make crestwinds what it was in its heyday. a bonded, loving band where everyone had a place to fill and part to play. no one is insignificant. i must i must i must. besides that i was great to meet with my twin, and lovely to hear the nice hellos and "yay, marlina's here" when i got there. it made me smile extra wide today.
but i must get my head out of the clouds and face reality. the harsh truth is.....
PROMOS. yes. akan datang. i've a bad feeling about this. really.
oh well, tomorrow's test is number one on list now. so must MUG. and not to mention, complete my paper 8 assignment early so that there is no scramble on thursday night. many things to do.
toodles~
marlz
what is a sound without an echo
8/16/2005 01:42:00 ip.