I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
lauantaina, kesäkuuta 04, 2005
organization
i finally got down to organizing my links. they were in quite a terrible state beforehand, so i resolved to do it at last. no more bad links!
anyways, i'm terrible at organization. my papers are always missing, i have books everywhere, i always multiple copies of some paper which i should only have one copy of, and my file is always declared a gone case by teachers. the space under my bed has monsters, one affectionately known as Frankie, a Count from Romania, a few wraiths, a dozen orcs, a handful of witches and couple more creatures that make that bump in the night, not including the bogeyman (what can i say, trouble loves company). and i would mention my study table, and my cupboard, only that whoever's reading will have a heart attack, and i don't want to be charged for murder. i admit it, i'm one messy girl. but i cannot work otherwise. the moment i clear up something, i can't find anything. so i'm happy in my little mess. i think i'd go mad if i don't have that chaos in my room, since everything else in my life is so ordered.
friday was our first prac without the year 2s and also my first prac on the bass clar. i was panicking cos i all did was squeak and squeak and finally, fu quan helped me adjust so that i didn't squeak as much. (thank youuuuu!) its fun, but it takes some getting used to. i quite like playing the bass clarinet, prolly since i was stuck in first clarinet for 4 years, so playing the accompaniment instead of playing melody is a change. i felt so alone sitting there in the centre. suddenly the sides were so empty. in fact, the entire room felt empty. oh well, i need practise practise and more practise so i won't let the seniors down. *sighs*
since there aren't any crestwinds students in band to go home with(the only other crestwinds member in mj is a year 2 in SLC), i found myself tagging along with the haisians. its quite natural since we all live in the same area and take the same bus home. and also because they like to hang arnd in the band room while felicia, teresa and the others go off so early.
i'm in the bb mood! bb = baking and biking. baking and biking anyone? =) thinking of what to bake always makes my head hurt, cos i always think up many different things that i want to bake, but i can't decide on one. sweet or savoury? and to bake many things costs money, so all the kaching will be gone and i'll be broke. nope. i must decide. suggestions please...*smiles sweetly*
i don't have anything to blog about actually, today was a rather lazy saturday, the kind where you just sit in a comfy chair and watch the breeze play with the curtains and the sunlight stream in the window. the kind of saturday i despise because it makes me feel useless. i want to be in school! i tried to occupy myself by hitting the books but it was a futile attempt. i miss the library air-conditioner. i miss the books in the library, the smell in the library and the fact that there is no children's section in the library, because there are no lil peace-disturbers in the library. and i like the library because the other students who use it don't require music to study, refrain from talking or are just sleeping, so its silent. silence is my music. but i think i've placed enough emphasis on that. i like the mj library, i cannot deny it. i sound as if...i'm off my rocker. heh.
off to more econs work. *groans* toodles~
marlz
6/04/2005 03:00:00 ip.