I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
keskiviikkona, kesäkuuta 22, 2005
minties
dreadful alarmclock and its dreadful chanting with its dreadful background music *scowls*
"wake up, wake up good morning!"i don't wake up because of that alarm clock, i get frightened half to death and start out of my sleep. its so loud and its just plain freaky. i feel like bashing that thing to bits with a baseball bat. since when are mornings good when you wake up with a start?
but oh well, its quite good at getting me out of bed (that is if i set the alarm), even though i'll be in a terrible mood because of it.
this morning my alarmclock wasn't dreadful because i was having a nightmare. quite a silly one, but a nightmare all the same. get this. i dreamt i went to Finland during winter time without my skincare. and no lipbalm! die. the skin was peeling from my face and it looked like some cracked eggshell of a hard boiled egg. no, more like the earth and its plates, just that the plates didn't move.
too much tectonic plate theorybleah, enough about my weird dreams.
went to (surprise surprise) the library to study today, armed with minties, and a pile of books that looked like a mini mt fuji in my arms (well, just that it can't spew lava). quite empty, considering that its the last week to the mid year exams. just a whole lot of people playing computer games and the usual familiar faces like megan. always comes early, leaves late. *sighs* i wonder where she gets her drive from. i must aim to be more like her!
anyhoos, managed to plough through king lear today. and do a lil more geog. what mui yi said was true.
the more you study, the more afraid you become, because the more you realise you don't know. . i get a freaked out a lil bit each day, and collectively, its alot of freaking out. darn darn double darn. i doubt i'll do well, i doubt that i'll pass even. ARGH. *tears her hair out*
i must go for a run, its lovely weather. the cool air will do me loads of good, and would for anyone else (jogging anyone?). if not, then i'll head to Loyang Pt to trim my hair. in any case, no more Lear for me today. perhaps a little econs. the clouds are covering the sun baby, and there's no better time to hit the park! my eyes are smarting from too much computer and my head's aching from too much reading.
*blows hair out of eyes*
nothing really bloggable today, except for how my day was. i think my blog's becoming one of those www.whatididwhatiatewhatiwatchedwhatisleptwith.com blogs. darn. its called mid years coupled with a terribly huge mind block, so don't be too harsh on me.
back to my minties and my running shoes...
toodles~
marlz
6/22/2005 08:37:00 ap.