I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
torstaina, toukokuuta 19, 2005
thursdays
thursdays. just the very thought of thursdays make all 05A202 students sigh. you'll encounter students of pleasant countenance in the morning, but aft the first 2 lessons, we start looking rather pathetic. so i admit we are a bunch of whiners, but at least we're a united bunch of whiners. SO THERE! *glares*
i spent my night up doing my pi which i had to do over TOTALLY. so i didn't have time to cram for the lit test today. so annoyed with myself. on wednestday i woke at 4 am to find that i was sprawled over my geog assignment, with my papers strewn over my bed, my pen still in my hand, the light and radio on, and of course, my assigment only 3/4 complete. i don't know how i managed to fall asleep over my work without noticing, but i sure did panic, since the assignment was due that day. or so i thought. i only found out later, that actually only had to do an essay plan, instead of a full fledged essay. but it turned out to be advantageous for me since ms yeo decided to set it as an assignment and so i had less work to do for that day, and the day after.
i've taken to joining the ranks who troop to the study areas or for consultations straight after lessons. it saves me time, it helps me catch up, and i can have some well-deserved rest when i get home, instead of having to complete my tutorials, i get to cram in peace. so nice. the only catch is that i can't stay on band prac days. prolly i'll take to coming to school on saturdays as well.
talking abt test, today's test was a disappointment to me. justin and myself crammed for an essay test, only to find that its actually a fill-in-the-blanks sort of test. and the problem got worse when we flipped the page and discovered that gothic architecture was being tested. in a way, today was also "the day of reckoning", since Dr S challenged us on wednesday to ace the test in return for the S paper. not that i'm striving to do the S paper (i'm not sure yet whether its worth it), but it would be nice to know that i could do it if i want to. judging from my answers, i doubt i will be able to do it lar. but it'll definitely be nice to ace it. quite impossible, since i've not attempted a lit test in 2 years or so, but a girl has the right to dream doesn't she?
frankie and me = mutual liking. lol. its grown on me, though i admit it is rather dry in the first parts, otherwise, its a great read. really. poor poor frankie. in a way, it reminds me of " a paradise lost". frankly, if frankie had been accepted by that annoying old fart Victor, he'd probably turn out to be something thats essentially good, not that monstrosity thats portrayed in most film adaptations of the book.
ah, my back hurts. band tml band tml band tml. i want to know the election results. its been at the back of my mind, a dark nagging thought that gets worse by day. it has resulted in a state of fretfulness, and i've been leaving things all over the school. or like ms lim said " this week you very blur ar, what happened?". it will come in time, i just must be patient *fidgets in chair*
i've hardly any energy to come up with something more blogworthy, so i'm just going through the motions of putting down my thoughts on today. at any rate, i'm sleepy, and since i have completed all my tutorials, and i've revised for my test, i shall now lay my weary head upon the pillow on my bed. to all a goodnight~
marlz
5/19/2005 01:06:00 ip.