I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
tiistaina, toukokuuta 31, 2005
techno and sorts
everything techno just gets on my nerves. its so....beng. enough said.
GP. i don't know if i chose the correct question, because it seems as if half the class chose the same one and i didn't. they did the mass media question and i happily did the arts one. "The arts are merely for entertainment. Do you agree?". geez. i don't know i don't know. for some reason, i feel as if my arguments are very...iffish. its too late to regret so i shall let the matter rest. FOR NOW. wait until i get back my paper. until then, i'll concentrate on my other subjects. *screams* die die die
and i thought the hols would make me feel less tired. apparently not. econs econs and more econs. i DETEST econs. its currently the bane of my life. i seem to see my econs tutor everywhere, bugging me to go for consultations. my econs rep has blacklisted me because my econs essays are always handed in late, if not, then they are half done, bcos i seriously have NO IDEA how to go about writing the darn essays. and i think i'm going to flunk econs for mye. ARGH. someone save me, please.
did i mention that i hate econs? oh well, just checking. in case your head's made of granite or something.
don't mind me. i'm in a crummy mood today. annoyed with everything that moves (and somethings that don't), and i think its because the ms universe pagents aren't much a ego booster, but very much the contrary. thanks you skinny stage traipsing morons. thanks very much. so you do community work and stuff like that and some of you actually don't have helium in between your ears, but hey, you're pretty, and that irks me. *glares*
no, no i'm NOT angsty. ouch my eye, darn that black eyeliner *blinks*
oh well, i watched star wars, like the rest of the j1 cohort. was so uber cool, if not for the ending. i think if not for watching it, i'd be in the dark abt star wars for eternity. was rather annoying watching it with meridians but i got to watch it anyways, so it isn't so bad. *shrugs* i guess.
went out today because geog lecture was cancelled, so i didn't have to go to school. not much to rejoice abt since tml there is econs lecture. major ARGH.
watched ocean's eleven today. one word : clever. and like any self respecting bimbo, i ogled at brad pitt throughout the show.
and yes jake, i'll call you as soon as i escape econs. have i told you that i miss you *grins*
np concert! going to give and (most importantly) receive a promised hug from the BEAR andrew. now i just have to decide what kind of flower or gift to bring for him.
i need some...some. can't tell. but i need it.
and where are you, i've been waiting and waiting and waiting and, well, waiting. get the picture?
*yawns* i need sleep. please pray that i aint as cranky tomorrow. cos i'll be praying for my classmates if i am cranky.
toodles~
marlz
5/31/2005 03:44:00 ip.