I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
sunnuntai, toukokuuta 08, 2005
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after having my head in the clouds for the past few days, i've finally returned back to earth rather unglamorously. why? well, you can say i was unceremoniously pulled down by this other thing that torments us students called pw, thus causing me to land with a painful bump on the ground. and i thought i would be able to enjoy the rest of my weekend. apparently not. *rolls eyes*
i was tackling lear last night till quite late and i settled into bed to re-read dracula, since i think i didn't go into it enough the last time i did. so i got little sleep, which is probably another reason (besides the fact that i still have 2 dozen gigantic pills to finish) why i'm in a very cranky mood right now. *frowns* bite me.
next draft for pi is due tomorrow. and gpp is due sometime next week. perhaps i'm cranky because i have malay summary to do. yea. i think thats it. malay summary gets me all huffy and upset, because i hate malay. i must pass well at the end of this year, i must pass well at the end of this year, i must pass well at the end of this year. say goodbye to crankiness for ever after that. its not that i hate studying malay, its just that i don't see why someone who's caucasian like me needs to study malay formally. i rather study swedish or finnish since their finland's national languages.
trust jake to make me smile. just chatting with him and he told me he has put up the song i adore on his blog again (ok, so its because he adores the song as well, not because of me). smile awhile and i think of pi, and my heart sinks down down down into my boots. note to self : find time to meet with jake
i visited the cna forums and was utterly disappointed at the response of certain ppl to the syf central judging results. for one, i don't believe in airing your dirty laundry in public, especially when it comes to cyberspace. its sad that people cannot accept things, take things that cannot be changed as they are, and move on. yes, you're upset, but so are hundreds of others. you don't have to go announcing to the whole wide world that it was unfair (although you may sincerely think that it really was unfair). why? well, here are some reasons for you:
1. you're bringing down the morale of other bands
2. you're not giving a very pretty impression of yourself and your own band
3. its so much easier to just keep your opinions and comments to yourself and save yourself the trouble of having to argue with other people who disagree with you
4. i don't think the cna forums are meant to be used as a place to argue over what colour medal you have been awarded.
really, i think that the person who started it should have just kept it to himself in the first place. sigh. *shakes head* what is this world coming to.
comments aimed at a large population to prevent yourself frm pinpointing the exact person hurt more than a comment aimed at a particular person.
back to second draft of pi. darn darn double darn. but tml is a brand new day. (hopefully, not a brand new cranky day)
till i finish pi.
marlz
5/08/2005 10:48:00 ap.