I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
torstaina, toukokuuta 12, 2005
fitness and stuff like that
my computer has issues. bleah.
so. i couldn't blog for a day, and i couldn't access IVLE. and everything like that. how sad how sad.
so. wednesday. we were supposed to have that house comm elections, but i managed to skip since i thought band prac started at 2.30. anyhooos, ms lim let me off and i strolled my way to the band room to find it positively deserted. was quite unbalanced because the exco nominees (includes me) were going to make a speech before the band to ask them to vote for us. so i was pretty much like a raving lunatic.
the other ppl didn't arrive till much later. so i was preparing the lil things that i thought i was going to give out much later. to my dismay, i found out that i have to finish giving them out by next week wednesday. then some of them really look horrid bcos of the lack of ribbon. but no choice. for those whom i have given it to alraedy, i apologize that its quite, well, unpleasing to the eye. to those who haven't got it, wait a little longer ok. i'm still cracking my head over what to write for each person.
dreading that particular day. i wonder what it will be like when we're left to our own devices and to fill in that humongous gap they leave behind.
doing the speech was scary. but afterwards there was this sense of closure. now its in the hands of others, not in mine. i just pray i didn't make a fool out of myself. my speech was disappointing, and someone told me it was too short. i really did plan something but the moment i got in, my mind went blank and i forgot everything. so i just said something, none of which i think got the band's attention. i leave things now to fate. and if i'm not fated to be in the exco, so be it. i've swallowed worse before.
today was the longest day ever (though i believe there are longer days to come). A202 was super pms-ey. tension was in the air, and it got rather heated during lunch. but i think we were all tired, that's why. there were a few absent bcos they were unwell (thanks to me and the positively horrendous weather). and well, we had a rough day. but its over, and tomorrow is always a new day.
gosh. i've a mountain of work to do, including a malay essay *faints*
toodles ppl
marlz
5/12/2005 10:46:00 ap.