I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here

I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.

As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.

Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.

But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.

To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are

<3 M

tiistaina, toukokuuta 10, 2005

chiasmus

i think its a bit freaky that there was a thunder storm today aft i posted abt my own "storm" yesterday evening. crash boom rumble. i wasn't at sea, but i wish i had been. i miss the sea. the storm, it was...well, i can't describe how i felt. i'm usually rather afraid of thunderstorms, particularly, the lightning. but today i was unaffected by the storm totally. perhaps it was partly because of the company of my fabulous classmates, or the fact that i was high after presenting during literature. simply put, i was in a good mood, reasons unknown.

today morning, geography test. i departed from home later than usual and boarded bus 89 with my nose in my geography text and notes. by chance i happened to look up to rest my eyes, and to my surprise (and you might even say horror) i saw a familiar figure standing before me, tapping his card, who turned out to be none other than wee cheng. talk about the familiar becoming scary. the UNHEIMLICH. goodness. i'm seeing it everywhere. oh well, after shaking myself out of the stupor, i managed to mutter a small hi, and hit the books again. not that wee cheng is scary or anything, its just that he gave me a bit of a shock.

i cannot escape lit, its everywhere. and i still have to read frankie *groans*. and i went to do a bit of searching on the net about freud and latent sexuality in gothic literature, need to catch up with the rest. i still love lit, even if it makes me blind from reading by the end of the course. and i really really pity those poor test tube ppl. science is a hazard to your health.

i thought the school would be kind of empty, it being a tuesday morning and all, but noooooo, it was swarming with chemistry students, who were unlucky enough to also have a test this morning. i found justin, sat down and continued reading my notes till evelyn and mohadher arrived. 5 minutes to the paper, we decided to troop to the slaughter room (aka the geog room where the test was held) and awaited chris chen's arrival. as soon as i got the test question i blanked out totally. and i seriously think i did badly, though justin and evelyn would beg to differ. i was writing frantically throughout the paper and just as i was reaching my 2nd paragraph of the last question (which carries the most marks, fyi), mr chen tells us that there is only 3 minutes to the end. a mad scramble to finish all diagrams, label them, and most importantly, finish the last part. and i didn't finish. darn darn double darn. it doesn't help to know that the entire class failed the paper ( not including the syf ppl like myself, justin and evelyn).

so after that we "got out of there" as chris chen asked (or rather, demanded) and went to the canteen to complain about how badly we did. eeeee, we sound like some aunties at the kopitiam. i on the other hand was now trying to finish a malay essay (which was not due today. *fumes*) and my econs homework, which included this DRQ question that i have lost. when will i ever grow out of the habit of losing my things? and also assist NurC in her part about the absolute rule of king lear.

so far, the day sounds bad, but seriously, i don't think it was. i was very high, so i guess that helped me get through it without any pain. aft that we had GP, where my group smoked through yet ANOTHER presentation, having prepared nothing (due to my absence from school), i was forced to do it impromptu with marilyn again. its always us girls doing stuff like this. time to make the male members of our group do some work. aft that we had lit, and the presentation. alan, had some problems fitting my part into the ppt, and we ended up with a rather uneven distribution of slides. the rest had around 2 slides each and i had 8. yea. 8. and the worst part was that we had to the presentation quickly, so rattled on and on and i think i sent half the class to lala land as i was speaking.

and then it rained. yahooo...

the rest of the day was rather boring, so i shall spare you the details. geography lecture today was very interesting. double period, and i survived!

my mood was dampened considerably aft finding out that we had to submit our gpp by tomorrow, and that our group has done NOTHING. nil. nada. zip. but it was a relief to know that the other groups' gpps are non existant at this point in time. so i now have to try churn out a gpp by tomorrow. i hope my brain work is still functioning, esp after reading abt freud just now.

super sleepy, but i have to mug for another test tomorrow. its human geog this time. how depressing.

i think i shall end this post on a lighter note...there's band tomorrow!!! sofunsofunsofunsofunsofun.

time to tackle gpp now, toodles

marlz

tiistaina, toukokuuta 10, 2005

chiasmus

5/10/2005 01:22:00 ip.

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