I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
perjantaina, toukokuuta 13, 2005
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today was the performance of the 2 syf pieces for the school. zofia and shuhui said that it was impressive, but i'd like to think otherwise. last thursday was much better. anyways, we wasted quite a bit of time in the hall. then me donovan and abigail went to change into pe attire. i ran to malay class to find that i had wasted my energy since there was only 5 minutes left to the lesson.
ran down to pe only to find no one was there. waited for the rest of a202 to turn up. i didn't do anything for pe today since its the 5 stations and i'm exempted from that. all i did was sit around and cheer ppl on. the chin ups were the most interesting. some ppl couldn't do any chin ups whatsoever, and some whom i didn't think would be able to do at all managed to complete 5 with a gusto. (actually, there was only 1 who managed to do all 5. my class is full of ppl from armstrong club) it also is amusing to watch them while knowing my grandfather, a man in his 70s, does 20 chin ups every morning as part of his daily exercise. wonder what the guys in my class would do if they saw him do that. freak out, prolly.
gp was aft recess, and it was while mrs logan was lecturing our class on our behaviour that i discovered i had somehow misplaced my uniform during the day. so i ran out, searching every nook and cranny that i thought i might have left it or dropped it at, and i found it in my malay class. i am a rather irksome creature. it annoys me how many times i misplace my things and panic bcos of the slightest things. sometimes its to my advantage, sometimes to my disadvantage, so it balances out somehow. but i do hope i stop being so much of a worrywart and a SOTONG and grow out of this 'phase'. and i sincerely do hope its a phase. really
went with anand, evelyn, aneesha, and fuad for lunch at magic wok. we left alot of food which was really really bad of us, but we couldn't do anything abt it since we really couldn't finish. went home, bathed, came back for band. by that time, started feeling a bit out of sorts. so i just kept away from noise. silence is so comforting, yet i couldn't find comfort in it today. heart : in footwear. the noise was worse. nothing makes you feel lonelier than being in a crowd that is hyper and happy, when you don't feel likewise. the worst part is feeling lonely in a crowd. so i kept to myself.
we ran through some new pieces, one of which caused me to be rather lost during band, and i found it very demoralizing. we need to work work work more. pack up, arrange chairs in the hall for parent-teacher meeting, aft which we had that "band dinner". the fact that i stuck to myself made many ppl ask me why i was so sad/loner. yea. appreciate the concern ppl, just out of sorts. some things cannot be told, cannot be explained. so i just won't explain and keep it simple can?
went home rather late. wanted to be home late. didn't feel like going home. i suddenly feel...oh well, i shan't go on abt how i feel. like i said. i keep things simple this time.
oh ya, final reminder....GO TO www.dailybacktrack.com. OK?
i think i better catch some sleep while i can. nites...
marlz
5/13/2005 02:39:00 ip.