I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
perjantaina, huhtikuuta 01, 2005
shagged
yes, i'm super shagged. today is friday. reported to mj relatively early, but was irritated by the number of ppl in the bus. i mean, i've never taken buses to school before, at most a few times only. this is my first time in a school where i have to catch a bus to get there. so thats why i'm irritated. i still prefer walking to school over anything else.
ying jie came to school in her tkgs uniform, and she stuck out frm the crowd. ALOT. anyways, she was on mc the day before, so she din know abt the uniform thing. too bad. oh well, we had this talk on library and cip in the hall. the guy telling us abt cip was very gay-ish to me. he even had a weird way of speaking, like he couldn't say plain twenty or anything, he HAD to say twentaaaay. like, what's with the drawl man? shu hui spoke to us also. been some time since i last saw that AUNTY. i remember she cried last time in band when ruz screamed for the phantom of the opera piece, cos she nearly had a heart attack. was very brave of her to be in front of all of us.
so aft all that crap ying jie, vanessa and myself had a 2 hr break, so we decided to go to the library to study. met jason on the way, so me and jason went to look up the geog books. so sad, there wasn't any geog lecture today. vanessa was cracking her head over c math, i was revising econs, jason was revising geog, and ying jie was sleeping. she said that libraries are meant to sleep in. the ao math lecture was so darn simple she just went thru intersection and union of sets. soooo sec 3. did the assignment very quickly and then slacked thru the rest of the lecture. the lecturer wasn't that good either. she wasn't very sure of her answers and kept making tons of mistakes. gdness. what have i gotten myself into.
aft that we had the paper 1 lecture for lit. shakespear, the lecturer was mrs loh. she's quite ok. anyways, i enjoyed that lecture the most today. i also noticed many ppl pon lecture. lol. i guess thats normal.
aft lit we had common lunch. the three of us headed down to ws to slack, since we THOUGHT we had one and a half hrs free. note, we THOUGHT. when we went back for the econs lecture we were puzzled bcos the lecturer had not arrived 15 minutes past time. in the end, we realised that it was the fine print that stated that the lecture was shifted to half an hour AFTER the usual timeslot on fridays. darn it darn it. we spent that time reading up on econs. aft that stupid lecture we were actually supposed to have a break for 45 minutes bfore the pw lecture. but we decided to crash the earlier pw lecture so we could be let off early.
i ended around 4.45 and was heading home when KZ showed up and asked me how come i was not going for band. so i ran back to school frm ws. was a bit late, but not so late that i was scolded. bsides, i really had NO idea that there was band today. we started at 5.
the conductor is really cool. nv had a lady conductor bfore. they say she's strict but i find her really funny and cute. so we ran thru the syf pieces. singapore rhapsody is so easy. got it pretty fast. the one i had probs with was the choice piece. there are so many running notes that i couldn't catch up, but i did manage to get the jist of the entire piece. we ended at 9.15 and then i went home. you can imagine how shagged i am now. esp since tml there's sectionals at 9.30. i dun mind spending time out of home, but sometimes it gets quite lonesome when there is no one to acc you home and its late. last time i always had someone who'd send me home in the evenings if we ever stayed late in sch. usually eric or jon jon. i cope with it, but i dun like it.
so now i'm shagged, really want to KO but i dun feel like KO ing. darn it darn it. at least i dun have to crack my head over c math like vanessa. good luck to her.
today's april's fool joke was hilarious. shld have seen teh look on kelvin's face. haha.
till i get un-shagged~
marlz
4/01/2005 02:48:00 ip.