I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
maanantaina, huhtikuuta 11, 2005
joel rocks
today. went to sch early early in the morning though i was absolutely shagged frm trying to complete econs and geog tutorials and also frm lack of sleep. i thought i slept wel enough for a camp over the weekend. i was very very wrong. worse, i wasn't really feeling well. i kept coughing and coughing during lectures. and i also felt very cold. wonder whats the cause. 2 weeks in mj and i already fall ill. pathetic. *marlz sighs* on top of that, eric is in sri lanka now, so i can't call him up and chat/whine/listen like i usually do. yea, i wasn't really very happy that i couldn't send him off that sat cos i was at camp. i do remember that i was very very happy when he came to send me off. so sweet right my bro. so i called him instead. only managed to converse for 2 min since he was packing, but i sent with him my well wishes and love. anyways, i'm counting down the days till he gets back.
so what happened this morning. right. assembly. izzat's class is on my right and ying jie's class on my left. really, some ppl haven't given up teasing me since they were pri 2. now i have to bear another 2 years to their endless taunting. maybe i should just step on their faces. PIAK. (ahem ahem IZZAT you know who i'm referring to *marlz pulls innocent face*) ms lai spoke to us abt the sch logos and stuff. made my legs cramped. first lecture geog. continuation on coastal geomorphology. was quite fun. i'm still surviving geog, cos i enjoy it. aft that was ao math. i was realy really really supercalifradgilistically annoyed with mrs quek. it was really the last straw. unlike me, not everyone has taken a math before, so obviously they expect the teacher to explain fully. but it didn't happen. nope, she skipped steps right left and centre. in the end i was so irritated that i interrupted her halfway thru and asked her if she could elaborate fully. sheesh.
well, aft that annoying lecture we went for econs. killer. and worse, we have a test coming up. essay test. i have totally no idea how to write an econs essay. darn it darn it darn it. i'm so dead.
and finally, the lecture i always enjoy the most, lit. sofunsofunsofunsofun. went thru types of narrative. obviously poems are my fave. so jealous of the first 3 month ppl, they got to do 'The Highwayman' during their first 3 months. not faiiir. i love that poem. sigh. oh well, its my fault for not doing at all well for prelims. but hey, i did work my butt off for the o's k. dun anyhow say say.
the rest of the day was pretty boring. i went back and forth between the library and bandrm cos SOMEONE told me yesterday that the band rm would be open frm 2 pm onwards and i desperately wanted to loan out the instrument. i made at least 5 trips, all for naught. jeez. it was fabian who told me in the end that it would only be open frm 5.30 onwards and that i might as well just go for the pw lecture before heading back there again.
enough of depressing stuff. on a lighter note, today is my bro's bdae. turn 13 already, suddenly i feel so old. päh. old my foot.
went thru invictus. so super scared since vincent is going to test us again this week. have to prac have to prac have to prac or i'll die of fright. at least with the prac i'll feel a lil more secure, though my hands will be cold. stupid hands.
oh, i somehow stumbled across joel's(band president) blog. lol, i tagged and he said i rock. lol. you rock too joel! and so does band. whoots~
*marlz yawns* till i get some proper sleep
marlz
4/11/2005 01:57:00 ip.