I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
lauantaina, maaliskuuta 19, 2005
if i aint got youuuu
darn it darn it darn it. i hate junk mail. double darn. thank goodness i don't get as much as isi does in the mail. now his mailbox is consistently a mess due to loads of SPAM. yep. hate spam.
this day isn't looking good, its only 12.42. darn it darn it darn it.
1. my hair is a mess. no girl likes a bad hair day. especially me. hair oh hair of mine, will you please obey me?
2. its very hot outside. damn the hot weather. and it hasn't rained in ages. and its so humid. you come out of the shower, get dry and dressed and when you step out of the home it loks as if you haven't dried yourself off at all. bleah. if only it would rain for 3 straight days without stopping. i miss winter! wish i was back with Kati my snow sister walking around town and enjoying the cold. for now i have to bear the heat. i wish the rain clouds would come again. *marlz sighs*
3. my mom and bro are hogging the tv and watching, of all things that i do not appreciate on a hot day, a soccer match. a soccer match is fine at night or in the wee hrs of the morning when its LIVE, not when its a hot noon, and when the match is not live. darn it darn it darn it. *marlz grumbles*
4. i can't go out. why? i dunno why, ask my mother. sheesh.
5. the jae posting results are out on wednesday and i'm nervous. why does it have to take so long?
its not as if everything isn't going my way. there are some things that are. i think. see, i don't even know. darn it darn it darn it.
till i get something that cheers me up~
marlz
3/19/2005 04:26:00 ap.