I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
sunnuntai, helmikuuta 20, 2005
passive aggressive bullshit
currently in love with : my robbie williams cd!
yep, i finally got that robbie wiliams cd i was eyeing for 2 and a half months. thank gdness i did not buy it in finland. it would have cost double the price i bought it at! but anyways, i got it and i'm so in love with that cd. think the ppl in my hse are getting sick of that cd. but i'm not. all the songs are so nice (btw, in case you are wondering, its the Greatest Hits cd) everything seems to be my fave. no way i would be able to chose one from all of them. i'm abt to say 'i'm lovin' it', just that it sounds so cliche. great thanks to macdonalds for that. bleah.
went to the movies that day with my mom. my treat. watched constantine. one of the coolest movies i've ever watched. in fact, i wanna watch it again. keanu reeves was so hot! perhaps i should write some fan mail. ask him to exorcise me. *marlz laughs like a mental patient*. yep, keanu is hot in a suit. and YES i know he is 40. but i don't care, he's hot and he acts well. *marlz sticks out tongue* i like the sarcasm in the movie. the storyline is interesting and i like the action scenes. some parts were kinda scary. and the gd part was there were no kissing scenes. yay. i hate kissing scenes, they make me feel like closing my eyes. and i do, many many times. yea yea, laugh at me. overall, i really like the movie. and i really like that keanu played john constantine *marlz swoons*
so yea, i wanna watch it again butno one seems to be free, so nvm. i shall go myself. so pathetic until must go alone.
got kinda interested in hellblazer. that comic. see if i can get a few issues.
went with oke and adeline to the tp open hse on saturday. went straight to the school of business to check out cmm. what happened was so embarassing. (at least, to me) well, i walked straight up to this girl wearing the black tee that indicated she was part of the course and that she would able to help me. i asked her where nadiah was. so this is where its gets embarassing for me. there was this guy standing at the side who was talking to the girl. i assumed he was a student and i interrupted their convo when i asked abt nadiah. it turned out that nadiah wasn't there and then the guy started to talk to me. to my horror, it wasn't a student. in fact, it was a lecturer. WORSE, it was darryl david. aiyoh. so well, he told me to come later for the presentation at 1.15 pm. he looked at me weirdly and then he asked "do you happen to be adrian's sister?" and i was very dazed and babbled something abt me not having elder brothers and was like, who's adrian? and he couldn't hear, so i just said that i had no such brother. how irritating, esp since i'm interested in that course. i hope he didn't think that i was rude. if i get that course, then i'd be in for it if he did. oh well, just hope for the best.
so the open hse wasn't bad. not as grand as last year. the sch of engineering was so boring. design hadn't much to offer. applied science was full of ppl selling food. quite frankly, was only interested in the school of business. i managed to meet nadiah aft all and gave her a humoungous hug! went to see the presentation, which was a skit. the actors were really convincing. and then i went to tm with them to chill. oke then sent me home at around 6 plus.
talking abt school brings me to the topic of results. they are out soon. very soon. kinda looking forward to it, but also dreading it. i've resolved to enjoy my week of freedom. lol. do all the things i wanna do before d-day.
met huda tonight for a chat. talked abt loads of stuff. as usual, we had a great time. so nice to have a good friend like huda. my bestest senior and not just best friend, but best girlfriends. girls need girls just as women need women. to talk to and to air their troubles. was a windy night which was great since the weather is so hot. cannot take the heat anymore. which it was cold again.
really tired now, think i'm gonna hit the sack. nite nite to everyone
marlz
2/20/2005 03:56:00 ip.