I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here

I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.

As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.

Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.

But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.

To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are

<3 M

sunnuntai, helmikuuta 06, 2005

home again

been so tired, i've neglected my blog. hmmm.

thank you to all the ppl who've been calling and mailing and messaging to welcome me home.

on my last day, i woke up early and then got ready to go. had to get a train to Helsinki. so we went to the train station. felt sad cos säsä was not going with us to Helsinki. it was the last time to see him. feel bad that i couldn't really say goodbye properly since we were rushing.

Helsinki is a very cosmopolitan town. many kinds of ppl, indian, chinese, african, american, just everything. there was loads of slush. and it was kinda dark and wet cos its near the sea and all the snow melts partially. there was trams, the subway, loadsa buildings. think new york, but smaller. something like that. met Pipsa täti and Riita täti at the railway station. we went around, went to visit the Sibelius monument, and also took a ride on the tram. (those things which move in the middle of the road) that was fun. we also went to stockmann for some shopping and lunch. Met Mariko, my father's cuzzie. she's uber cool. Notice she has a Jap name? hehe, born in Japan and she speaks fluent Jap too. then we also stopped by at this coffeeshop. then Pipsa täti had to go home, so we boarded this bus to the airport. the airport is much smaller than Singapores but its still just as good. we had to wait awhile before i was allowed in. said last gdbyes to isoäiti and Riita täti.

the flight back was tiring and very very hard on the back and legs. a cpl was sitting next to me, this middle aged couple frm Hameenlinna. we chatted the entire time frm Helsinki to Bangkok. it was the lady's birthday too, had a mini celebration. aftwards at Bangkok, there was hardly anyone in the plane, so i got to choose a new seat. was very tired too, since i didn't sleep at all.

my dad and mom came to fetch me. then when i got home i gave out all the gifts to everyone, including loads to salmiakki!! haha. then i was too tired to unpack the clothes and all, so i just took a shower and rested. i finally fell asleep at around 11. kinda late.

the next day i had to go and re instate my permanent residency which had (unfortunately) expired during my stay there. what was weird was that i found out that my passport had not been stamped on my way out of singapore, but had been on my way in. the lady at the counter was kinda puzzled. went to change this chain my mom bought me for my birthday. then after that i went to aunty kamsinahs hse.

i spent the rest of the week resting, and on saturday, i went to meet eric at the usual place for dinner. had alot of catching up to do. and we had alot of fun, and also got a chance to share what we had been doing for the past 2 and a half months.

today i undertook 'project clean my room'. yea, so it was kinda messy when i left. feel fully rested but still am jetlagged. cannot adjust to the time difference so fast. i tend to sleep at around 4 am and wake at 12 nn. *sigh* i just hope my body gets back its rhythm.

everyone's been saying how fair i am!! i don't think so. and there have been some changed around here, i've noticed. its nice to be back, but somehow, i want to be there again. it feels as if, i won't ever be satisfied here anymore. nvm, enough of brooding. time to bother myself abt other things too.

well, till next time, tata

marlz

sunnuntai, helmikuuta 06, 2005

home again

2/06/2005 01:12:00 ip.

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