I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
torstaina, tammikuuta 06, 2005
photoblog
past few days have been very rushed. well, it feels that way since its always DARK. if you're trying to wake at the first light of day, no worries, since the first light appears only at 7 am. and if you want to turn in as soon as its dark, then you have a lot of sleeping to do because the light disappears at 3pm.
so, i went to sch on tuesday. only history. continued on Finland through the middle ages. particularly abt the war. then i ran home, only to find i had to run out again with isoäiti. then when we came back we just hanged and stuff. its nice to have a grandmother who hangs. she's a proper dudette. cool.
so well, wednesday. went out to shop. bought isi a gift and went to Robin Hood since there is a closing down sale. nothing much to see there since the shop was nearly cleared out by the ppl who got there first. went to see isi's cuzzie who was working at the clothes shop. she was really nice and such. also went to see äiti's friend who works at the torilla. tina. or something like that. she owns a kahvi kioski. so well, dropped by to see her. when she saw me enter she looked so shocked. then she later told me that she thought she saw äiti walk through the door. lol. that look was so funny. came home tired and some guest came over. hung round for ages and i was so tired. then mano called and asked if i'd like to go on a double date with him, his gf and some other guy to watch the sci-fi movie. i declined, cos i was so tired. pity i didn't go, i would have liked to see what my old playmate looks like.
oh no oh no, that reminds me. ANOTHER person in school knows me, and i don't know him. some Sebastian, tina's son. sheesh. small town this Vilmanstrand is.
so. what do you do when you are bored and in your gmother's house? look in the cupboards of course. i even found her wedding dress. my baby shoes. my baby dresses and all that. even a lock of my hair as a baby. its really gotten darker. but the gems of all gems were the photos. here's a look at some of them
who is that handsome soldier? my very own säsä, or as ppl will say, my grandfather. and he is a good looker aint he?
as you've prolly guessed, thats my grandmother. ppl say that i look like her in the pic. and she says it herself. i don't really see exactly how we look alike. she's pretty and i'm not. bleah. but there you have it, resemblences are in the eye of the beholder. *shrugs*
pity i don't have any pics of my maternal grandparents. but then they passed on a long while ago. very early. sad that it happened so. would have liked, at least, to know what they look like and how their voices sounded like.
on with the pics.
thats my isi and leena täti when they where young 'uns. i think they look cute.
thats mamma in her shop.
and i'll put up more pics later. till then tata.
marlz
1/06/2005 09:23:00 ap.