I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
keskiviikkona, joulukuuta 01, 2004
wet wet not wild
slippery slip slip slip...
it was a wet wet wet day. and uncommonly warm for finland. around 0 degrees Centigrade. and that means that the snow on the road melts and that it is slippery. and what made it worse was that it rained water. rained water. mann. and you know what. the roads iced over, and so did the pavements. making it slippery.
so i went to school. thank goodness i didn't have to start the term yet. turns out that lessons there are conducted in English. hahaha. thats to my advantage. i'm supposed to go tml, but well. its my hols for gdness sake, and i refuse to go. yep, i'm adamant about it. well, my timetable aint that bad. i don't have to do any tests like the rest, and i don't have to worry about homework either. and i don't have to go when i don't feel like it either, so its basically an on-off thing. and anyways, most of my lessons start at around 12 nn, and last, at most, 3 hrs. no longer. and i only study 3 subject. Finnish history, English and Biology. well, bio is quite and easy subject, so i was ok with it. Finnish history was my g.parents choice. and English, well. it is my fave subject, so although their eng standard is much lower, i'll join the class anyways. the eng teacher also requested that i join in, so that i can help. and the lunch in the cafeteria is absolutely free. which is a good thing. and its vegetarian meals for me mostly here bcos of the food not being halal and such. but its ok, i cope with that since most ppl *ahem* know my eating habits. hahaha. veli, i guess you know what i mean.
so here's my timetable :
monday : 10.00-11.00 BIOLOGY
12.15-13.15 ENGLISH
13.15-15.15 HISTORY
tuesday: 8.55-10.00 ENGLISH (optional extra lesson)
13.15-14.15 HISTORY
wednesday: 12.15-14.15 BIOLOGY
thursday : 12.15-13.15 BIOLOGY
13.15-15.15 HISTORY
15.15-16.15 ENGLISH
friday : 12.15-14.15 ENGLISH
and the other to days are absolutely free. ang is totally optional, so that may leave my fridays free as well. not too bad for college aye. and the school is just a walking distance from here.
i was quite tired by the time we had settled everything. and i was also kinda annoyed since i noticed the stares. i'm a mutt. mixed breed. in s'pore i'm too ang moh, in finland, i'm too dark. so where exactly do i fit in? ans : NOWHERE. you know why? bcos i'm a mutt. therefore i invite stares wherever i go. talk abt ppl having open minds in these time. yea right. i stick right out like a sore thimb. bleah.
came home and slept a lil. then in the evening i drank some tea, listened to the finn equivalent of perfect 10, that is, energy : only hits allowed. and then i watched olivers twist, as in that cooking show with my fave cook jamie oliver in it, and then i looked at some photos. which reminds me that my photos will be ready for collection tml. excited to see what happens.
for now, its already 11.15 pm and most of you will be sound asleep since its 5.15 am there. and so i will now retire to my bed. to all a goodnight.
marlz
12/01/2004 08:56:00 ip.