I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
maanantaina, joulukuuta 06, 2004
well well
well well, haven't been posting in the last two days. mainly bcos of two reasons. the first is that i was too lazy and the next is that i was too tired.
even this morning i woke up kinda of late. arnd 10 am. thats prolly since i stayed up till midnight writing letter and postcards to the beloved in the ol' sunny island called singapore. yep. its all for you ppl, so don't complain. =p
so what happened. on saturday aft hanging out on fri night i woke up late. (hmm, now where did i hear that phrase before?) and we had to go to some war veteran's independance day celebration bcos my grandparents are war veterans. so well, as you brilliant ppl have probably guessed by now, i was the total odd one out. the soldier at the doorway gave me this odd stare when i came in and when he took my coat from me. and then at the tables i had elderly citizens of finland left right and centre. yep, total odd one out. the entire event was kind of boring and i engaged myself by staring out the window at the falling snow and looking blankly at all the speakers while dreaming of what i would be doing if i wasn't there. but my grandparents obviously enjoyed my presence and so did their friends, as i observed by their comments. its was, "ai, kun ihana!" and "onpas se kiva" everytime i was introduced. hmm, i managed to get through it. the military band and their performance definitely did help. they filled the hall even though they had one per instrument, and they gave a confident and rather good performance. the horn and clarinet were definitely best, and the tuba could have given more support to the bass line. reminds me of our band before, all the support came from the eupho while the tubas were mewing away in the back. but they were definitely much better.
aft the whole boring thing they served sweet rice porridge, which is considered a treat here. and some pulla, cookies and coffee. i fidgeted and fidgeted and eventually we went home. the place itself was nice. an army camp apparently and all the buildings were old and very beautiful. i loved the walk back home.
sunday i woke up kinda late (ahem) and then had tea. found that my lips were bleeding even though i use lip balm. sigh. vanity is almost a necessity here. if you're looking for an excuse to be vain, here's a tip : go to a cold dry place. its all lip creams, hand creams, face creams, lotions, lipstick, lip balm, lip gloss. and i get off easy since i'm more brown than ppl here. they have to paint their faces to hide the pale skin. i don't. but still, i can't excape the all-important lip balm and body lotion. thats a must. and did i mention that my hair is static? its really silly looking, i put on my hat and try to smooth down my hair but it keeps standing up. and i have natural blusher too : the cold. i look like a baby doll plus rudolph gone wrong. sigh. so i had to get some medicine for the cracks on my lips. thank goodness they are much better now.
as i was saying. sunday i went to this fair at the old fort. its for christmas, kind of a pasar malam? i managed to get kalle a souvenier already. hoping to find one for nona soon. we also looked at the muikkuja, this kind of fish, and bought them. then i bought laku! very nice. so many flavours, but trust me to take only salmiakki. laku is this long thick shoelace like sweet. something like lakritsi, or licourice. so nice! i love salty sweets, too bad can't get them in singapore. i'm gonna bring loads home. we walked around and saw many things. met many ppl also. säsä wasn't feeling too well, so he din follow, but it was so promising weather in the morning. then trust things to go wrong and then it started to rain, and there was fog. not nice at all.
so that leads to today. today is the real independance day for finland. the 87th to be exact. well. had this mini celebration at home. the flag is put up everywhere, and soon i can light the candles in the window. will see that everywhere in finland. flags and blue and white candles in the windows. really nice. serenity.
so well, i have to leave off here since i have to bake piparkakku today. and well, there is also kate and leopold on tv tonight. so nice. looking forward to that. so till next time, loadsa hugs and kisses to all at home and to my friends.
marlz
12/06/2004 11:02:00 ap.