I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here

I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.

As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.

Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.

But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.

To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are

<3 M

lauantaina, joulukuuta 11, 2004

warm days.

another warm day. around 3 degrees Centrigrade.

i've been trying to correct that error in my posts. truth is, säsä is NOT saxsax, but its an error that makes it look that way. see, in the finn alphabet, there are three more letters, an a with two dots on top, an o with two dots on top, and another a with a large dot on top. the way words are said with these alphabets in them make them sound different and mean different things. so that saxsax is me trying to spell sasa with As that have two dots on top. just clearing that up.

yest. angry angry day. and dun ask. was in a horrid mood, and the icky feelings are still there. yes. beware. the icky feelings. so when i say i'm busy its means that the icky feelings are plaguing me, and that i do not wish to snap at you. so don't ask. remember that.

what else. oh yes, went to school. eng lesson. was kinda early and waited in the hall for the class to open. the rest of them were at the other end of the hall. elina saw me and they came over. didn't really talk to them since they didn't reall talk to me. felt kinda left out you know. so well, emma and her friend turned up and came over to chat. but too bad, the class opened before we could even talk properly. eng lesson was kinda funny. shared the book with nadya since i don't have one. anyways, they checked their homework. classes here aren't the same as those fast paced classes there. in fact, all the kids in the college i'm attending right now just started in august, almost all are sixteen and in the first grade or luokka in college, called lukio here. there are exceptions, one is 15 and another is 17. but the classes back in s'pore were so crammed. i still remember some chem lessons by mrs low where i couldn't take my eyes or ears or attention away frm her or i'd miss some impt point. but here, basically, everything is done slowly, there is a 15 minute break in between periods. and also, it isn't that hard not to pay attention and still get sometwhere. and the students here are still doing well, attaining like, best in the world for biology and second for math. and best for one more subject. their system pays off. really. it may be slower, but at least the students digest. and understand. classes are smaller, schools are smaller. *shrugs* i don't know how it works at all.

well, i had to ans some questions since they go round the class. then nadya didn't have this piece of work with her and i had to write it on the board. so the whole lot of us went up to the board and emma let me copy hers. it was this translation of finn sentences into eng. and i actually got it wrong. ah, too bad i have rusty finn and i didn't understand the sentence. i spotted the mistake, but i just let it be, and then i didn't bother when i got it wrong. thats definitely a first for me.

had to read this dialogue from a play "Educating Rita". that was the funny part. well, Rita, the so-called uneducated hairdresser speaks british slang. uses drop questions and stuff like that. so well, we had to act it out with a partner. and when we had the 15 min break, the guys behind me started to try to act it with a british accent. was hilarious. i just kept quiet but well, on the way home i burst into laughter on the street. they must have thought i had gone bonkers when i rushed out of class like that. i was trying to hold it in. already they have a heavy finn accent when they speak eng, and then they try to speak like a brit. enough about that. my tummy hurts already.

they asked me out on another outing last night, i gave them my number but i wasn't really feeling well in the evening when mitja called and isoaiti kinda talked to him so when i picked up, he told me he understands if i don't turn up, but that he and they rest would pick me up if i was feeling better later on. by the time i was it was kinda late, so i opted not to go. sorry guys.

this morning woke up to the smell of cinammon buns. isoaiti couldn't sleep so she had woken up at 5 and had nothing to do but bake. ruusu pulla, kaneli pulla and mustikka piirakka. translation : rose buns, cinammon buns and blueberry pie. and there was also raspberry juice. i attacked the juice, and tasted the pie. very nice. really.

now waiting to go out. i'm going to tread on water today. hopefully. have to ans the phone now. hmm

lauantaina, joulukuuta 11, 2004

warm days.

12/11/2004 09:41:00 ap.

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