I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here

I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.

As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.

Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.

But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.

To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are

<3 M

perjantaina, joulukuuta 03, 2004

sleepy

*yawns* mann, i'm sleepy. today is day 3 of joulu odutus, or the christmas wait. burnt my candle aft tea yesterday and opened my new chocky today. happens to be a mint chocky. nice. anyways, i'm sleepy cos i slept way too late watching this ghost story on tv, and then aft that i watched some show on cheating partners. woke at around 12.30 pm singapore time. which makes it 8.30 am here. looked through the kalevala jewels again. real cool.

today the temperature has dropped back to a nice comfy -8 degrees centigrade. and the snow isn't melting and the sun is up. lots of light today. nice. and i hope its windy too. and it won't be slippery. yay.

gosh i really fancy the bronze kalevala ring. but it costs so much. around 40 euros? thats quite hefty a preice for my pocketses.

most likely will go for class today. english. haha. can't stay away from my fave subject can i now?

talking about slippery roads. well, that day säsä and i were walking home from the kaupungki and guess what happened. well, thsi guy came walking up the lane towards us. gave me a lil stare. and since the pavement is small, he tried to run out of our way so that we could pass. and that was a huge mistake. well, he slipped, badly. it was a wet day, the road was iced over and he nearly had a bad fall. yep, NEARLY. säsä and me both reached out to stop him frm falling, but you know what. we didn't have to. he somehow pivoted himself on his leg that slipped, and swung his upper body wildly, and by some fluke, managed to get himself upright. and he just continued walking as if nothing happened. well, säsä and me were both quite shocked. and you know what, when we asked if he hurt himself he just shrugged and said "no, i guess" in finn. weird. then when we had walked some distance it all sunk in and we burst into laughter.

just had my daily instalment of gilmore girls (ahahaha, nona you're not the only one who gets to watch it) and there is a tv in my room, i get to watch anything and everything i want. hahaha

my pics came yesterday!! and oh yea, there are many of my standard pics *ahem* of my back. yep. in fact most of them are of my back. but i took quite a number of pics of the scenery, and will post them when they are scanned, since i can't quite work the scanner. some guy will be coming over to help.

last night i laughed my head off when trying to tell isoäiti abt kalle's impression of isi's 'bug story'. well, i couldn't. only resulted in tears and a very bad tummy ache. but it was really funny. here's roughly how it was told.

" i was just cycling in the park and a HUGE bug. was so HUGE. then it bit my leg and my leg FLY!!. then my helmet FLY! and my bicycle FLY!´"

some of you won't get it. but i won't explain. perhaps ranjani and oke and laughing over this. perhaps not. they've not heard the original. but its hilarious. and i shan't reveal more. only when i come back. *sticks tongue out*

ppl are so scared. i don't guess why. i admit, i get insecure at times. but i'm not scared of everything around me, or of change.i really hated it in school during those times when my classmates insist that i do something. bcos they are scared or shy. i mean, what's the worse that can happen? you are embarrased? you face something new? it becomes something that you remember? its not as if those things they asked me to do were going to affect their entire lives. gosh. i hate to think of those times. is change, and something new always bad? i don't think so. if change had been so bad, would we even possess the technology and the new knowledge of the world we have now? just think about it. if you're so afraid to do something like that, to be in that situation that is new to you. to be out of your comfort zone. just tell me, how will you ever discover new things? to be in your safe zone all the time is not real and not practical. and i will never think of forever. and i applaud my friend jake on this. he says change is his style. he embraces change. i think that is what we should all do. tradition is something that we can always keep, record and remember. but we can always cherish those memories and practice them once in a while. and when change does come around, we can make new traditions to keep, record and remember.

aft i've said my piece, i think i'll be able to sleep well tonight. *sighs contentedly*

gd aftnoon to all and till next time tata.

marlz

perjantaina, joulukuuta 03, 2004

sleepy

12/03/2004 08:11:00 ap.

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