I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
keskiviikkona, joulukuuta 01, 2004
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letsee...what happened yesterday?
yest morning i woke up with a start. i was having a lovely dream and suddenly...BANG. this loud noise made me jump out of my bed. the shelf at the head of my bed had toppled at 6 am. gosh. so i put it back up and tried to clean the stuff. but i had no idea what went where, and so i left it and went to sleep. and frm that time onwards, for the rest of my sleep. i dreamt a horrid dream of HIM. *argh* sickening. so i woke up at 8 aft that dream and told isoäiti what happened. she only laughed at me. haha. i guess it was kind of funny. but well. how unfortunate. we cleaned it up aftwards.
i got a christmas calender!! for the benefit of those who don't know what it is, its acherlie this calender where you peel off the days like a countdown to xmas. it starts on the 1st of December and the last day you peel off is either 24th or 25th, depending on what type of calender you get. so anyways, isoäiti gave me this beautiful xmas calender. and its an extra special one. instead of seeing pretty pic when i peel off the numbers, (today i peeled off number one), i get chockies instead. mann, way cool! and i also got a christmas candle. the days are marked onto the candle and you get to burn a part of it each day. nice right?
so well, i'm off to school today. college. and that boy they are matchmaking me to? bad news, he's in that school as well. sigh. have to watch out.
well. yesterday i went to the old eng playschool that i was from. amazing that my teacher i still there. anyways, its a nice place, and it was good weather to walk in, so we went to see the school and the teacher. the kiddies were running round the playground. so cute. and i FINALLY got some pics taken. they are being developed right now and will be ready on thursday. have to see if they are spoilt at all.
haha, maybe ben is jealous right now. cos i met loadsa ppl who are frm black metal bands. and they play the drums. lalala. well, the teens here are very into vandalism. yep. vandalism. horrible. it spoils my pics.
so well, i gtg now, get ready for school *bleah*
till next time, tata
12/01/2004 08:06:00 ap.