I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
sunnuntai, joulukuuta 19, 2004
lapin kota
watched the shining last night. quite okay. not scary AT all. don't know what the fuss about it was.
today. woke up fairly early. then isoäiti said that we are going out. went to vehkataipale, but not to uusirinteentie. was very beautiful out there. the drive was long. but it was a lovely drive. i realise that i have fallen in love with trees. the evergreens under the heavy load of snow. and on the drive you see so many trees you can't imagine. on every side of the road, trees trees and more trees. we went in the aftnoon, around the sininen hetki time. today was more of a harma hetki though. like isoäiti said, " today brings postcard weather." well. so we reached the house.
and guess what, we didn't go into the house. it was quite dark by then. i had some fun making snow balls. then we went to the lapin kota. its this lapp hut made in their lawn. so nice. its like those lil huts you see on tv. totally made of wood, with a fire burning in the middle. smallish, but not medium sized. and there is a hole at the top to allow the smoke to escape. i can't really put it in words. its that pretty.
so we had quite a treat there with isoäiti's friends matti and helena. well. i saw the old house but no one was there. in the kota the fire warmed us. there was that smell of burnt wood. that smoky smell. really liked it alot. the rosy embers cast a warm glow on the walls and the slanted ceiling. i made a tikku makkara! that is, burning a sausage on a stick before the fire. we ate some, i sampled the taateli kakku and pulla. and the tuoreeta leipä tehtu taikinasta just meiän eessä. really really nice. was dark and all, and it felt as if we were really in lappland. like we had escaped the real world. there were reindeer antlers adorning the ceiling. and also there were lil lanterns burning and tuikkuja there, really set the atmosphere. also there was some lammas nahka and poro nahka that the lapps used when they sleep. spent some hours there. its been some time since i enjoyed myself. i feel contented for now. the smoke + Edgar Allen Poe. what bliss.
when we came out we realised how much it had snowed. just hope it becomes colder so that the snow doesn't go away. the drive home was nice as well. Matti and Helena were very nice ppl. was really nice to get to know them.
back to my Edgar Allen Poe. nitenite
12/19/2004 06:30:00 ip.