I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
keskiviikkona, joulukuuta 08, 2004
continuation
well well, guess what. another slippery day. säsä just went out for his morning walk, and i'm blogging. but i digress, i promised to continue, and i shall.
so well, yest i left off at the the i went home aft sch. well, i just wanted to continue was abt (surprise surprise) the weather. yep, well, acherlie i wanted to talk more abt sch. since isi is dying to know. well, so what happened. i went to shc the second time, then i arrived outside my class and saw this note, telling all the history students to head to the computer lab. i stood there wondering awhile, until this girl from my class, Elina, came down and saw me. then she brought me to the computer lab at the other block. its not like oyu know the prcs blocks, very near to each other. its quite a distance from the block is was in. and the sch only has 2 blocks. yep. so well, we went to the other block and waited inside the com lab since there was no one there. and it started to snow again. lots of snow. humongous clumps of them. and by then, some ppl were in the class already. haha, climbed over tables and such. and then a grp of them ran out of the class and came back in, with snow stuck in their hair. laughing. haha, was quite funny, they seemed very excited.
so i kinda have to help out in this sorta project for history. they're doing a portfolio, so that they don't have to do the test. so well, i'm helping out for the portfolio. gonna get my book today. also have to do some research on the iron age.
sigh. so well, i went for a walk at the satama by myself. lakeside. so nice. alone you know. got time to observe nature. looked at the pretty trees with the water frozen on the branches. crystalline. then looked at the lake and the faraway island. the boats packed up like christmas packages, waiting to be opened and let go. set free from their icy prison. the lake has iced over, and is safe to walk on. but i din venture onto the lake myself. there's this misty silence about it. so beautiful that it feels almost a sin to disturb and intrude on that pregnant silence. yea. so nice.
i finally walked home and then blogged. din feel very well aft helping with lunch, so i swallowed an aspirin, watched some tv. otin kylmee kolloo. haha. dunno if thats how its spelt. tulin näläka, and otin ruokoo. i'm getting quite good at that. säsä taught me. haha. well. today i had some activity, woke up fine aft sleep. had this horrid dream abt band during the night. its something i would have deemed good before, but well, i think its bad now. andrew will understand =) had yogurt for breakfast. yum. and then ran down to fetch the pillow isoäiti dropped from the balcony.
last night i heard this shouts and i was kind of frightened. was trying to sleep. so i went out of my room. säsä was watching tv in the living room. so i told him that there was a fight out on the street. haha, we had a blast watching. some drunk kids forma party. two were drunk and fighting, shouting and pushing each other and the other two just stood there and watched. and shouted. "no, lyökää nyt!" haha. so well, it was pretty comical. very funny.
i have to end off for now, have to get ready and also help isoäiti. till next time, tata
marlz
12/08/2004 08:44:00 ap.