I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
perjantaina, joulukuuta 17, 2004
broken
had problems sleeping last night again. i do remember something of my broken dreams. a tiger. a huge magnificent tiger. thats all i remember and waking up to isoäiti's voice on the phone. bothersome bothersome bothersome.
today. virallinen sauna päivä. last day of school. i thought i was late for school since almost a kilometer to the school. 7 min to 1 pm and my lesson starts at 1.15 pm. i ran out of the house. i was just at the bridge, around 400 m away frm the school and the church bell sounded. 1 pm. i took 7 min to run half a kilometer. i'm slow. i'm always slow, but i'm slower than usual i think. i don't know. its been ages since i ran the 2.4 km test. there is a test here for the students as well, but its over. they only have to go through pe once this year. and thats it. the course lasts around 2 weeks. 2 weeks of games, and one test. what bliss. thats like, pe everyday for 2 weeks. sigh. they're test is different. 12 minutes and you run round a track. aft 12 minutes you stop at your place and they see how much you ran. and then, no more tests. even if you fail. but don't blame me for running to school slower than usual. its hard to run on ice without slipping. which is exactly what i did.
school was only 45 min of eng. and then we also didn't use the book. we only played games and sang christmas carols. aft that we went home. and those lucky fellows got no homework for their hols. so totally unlike us. we have to do tons of homework and get 'christmas pressies' aka homework and hol classes. they don't. just plain hols all the way.
ran round lake. ran up the stairs. ran home. it was getting dark anyways, so i had to go home. 3 pm and its dark. saw the principal. he said hi. said hi. of all things.
have to go sauna. later.
12/17/2004 01:08:00 ip.