I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
torstaina, marraskuuta 25, 2004
sleet and snow
its kinda wet today. säsä went out just now to see if the weather is good to go out.
i woke up at 3 am. told you that my system is outta whack. so anyways, i woke at 3 was kinda bored. went to the toilet and all, and then tried to get back to sleep. i wished and wished it would snow as predicted. God is so considerate. suddenly i saw glittery feathers fall from the sky. i rubbed my eyes in disbelief. i went to the window and peered out. and sure enough, it was snowing. it came slowly at first. then it truly snowed. it isnt at all like rain. the snowflakes are really light and they swirl around in the air before settling down. imagine the deep freeze section in your supermarket. the cold air blows out and as you see it condense, it forms this wispy whitish misty thingamajig. then combine it with glitter. fine silverish glitter. and there you have it. you'll know what snow looks like.
x mas deco is up everywhere. i sure love the tradition of burning candles here. they're lit whatever the occassion. even without occassion. so fun. and also the cold air is very fresh. its nice to breathe here.
well, its obvious that my finn isn't that good, and i'mm very very rusty at it. but i'm picking up slowly. i even can speak a lil karellian slang now. haha. at least i understand what ppl talk even if i don't speak it too well.
so now i'm going to go out to the library. to pick up some eng books. new reading material. till then tata.
ps. i miss my dinner and phone partner.
11/25/2004 08:41:00 ap.