I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
perjantaina, marraskuuta 26, 2004
cinnamon buns
6.30 pm Finn time. 12.30 am S'pore time.
another day here in my grandparents place. it didn't snow today at all. but it started just to snow a lil. well well. alot of things happened
1. i managed to sleep all the way until 8.30.
2. i had a weird dream. something abt vampires. i and a couple others of my friends locked ourselves into this house. apparently, the vampires could shape shift and they could look like my friends. so i threw some so called holy water at each who entered. but one by one by friends in the house became vampires. and i slayed all of them. weird.
3. me and isoäiti baked cinnamon buns! so fun so fun.
4. went out with säsä to the s-market. met some new ppl.
5. read my eng book from the library. sense and sensibility by jane austen. i'm certainly greatful that the library here carries good eng books. whee. did i mention i met my old playmate when i was really young at the library with isoäiti. gosh. i don't even remember him. funny how i don't remember anything but everything or everyone remembers me.
6. went to sauna. definitely something really new for me. cos i don't remember how it was like the last time i went. our sauna here is on the first floor. and i left with isoäiti in my bath robe to climb down the stairs. aiyoh. felt very embarassed. but isoäiti assured me that no one would be there. so it was the 2 of us in the sauna. very hot. and i sweat so much. in the end i could only take arnd 10 min inside there and i went out and took a shower. then i put my bathrobe on and climbed the stairs. very pleasant i must say. refreshing. oh well, i'll be going there every week now.
7. there was a guest over today. liked my peanutbutter cookies. very very nice.
8. i got a new sauna dress. looks kinda cute. will get a pic taken of me with on. seriously, i look like some russian doll when i put it on. very very cute.
9. found out that my abg and kak min were mr and ms prcs. congrats to both. and the pics were beeee-yooo-tii-fuuul. thak you to crystal and company.
10. wrote letters to ppl in s'pore.
see. soo many things done. can't wait for tml. time to watch some tv. miss you guys loads. *muacks*
11/26/2004 04:14:00 ip.