I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
maanantaina, lokakuuta 04, 2004
stolen
i stole some time to update. well well, just as i expected. that COWARD did not approach me, rather, he left me alone. why didn't you come settle with me your prob? what, afraid? of a girl like me? more like you didn't wanna lose face. hah. thought so.
today was the geog and physics paper. i didn't finish physics, and i did fininsh geog, but i wrote so much i'm doubting whether i ans the question correctly. whats done is done, can't be undone. so just wait for the result. i hope they don't suck as much as i think they do.
cookie problems. oh, nvm.
so you see, i have a math, bio and physics mcqs left. mcq? fine. a math, confirmed gone case. i gave up on it a long time ago. when i saw paper 1 i knew i made the right choice. no way i'm gonna pass that subject, and its too late to struggle to pass, and also stupid bcos i rather concentrate on e math. its the beginning of the end. i hope the end of the end come soon. and it sure is taking its time to come. wish its over. that the bloody graduation nite is over. don't even want to go. got no cash to spend on it. its a waste of time. bleah.
been asked to go to the airport on sun mornin to accompany a friend. well. gotta see abt that. hopefully can go.
feel empty. thats it. empty and nothing more. a blank sheet of paper. is that supposed to be a good thing?
10/04/2004 02:08:00 ip.