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keskiviikkona, lokakuuta 13, 2004
random thoughts
i don't see a point in doing what i do. i mean, i find that urbanization and 'civilisation' as they call it has only made humans more self centred and ignorant. stop take a moment and think about it. students hurry around studying, mugging. office workers are working long hours to beat deadlines. humdrum. in this result oriented world, ppl are so focused on themselves, on succeeding and earning money that well, ppl have not thought abt making a difference in this world, even if it means not succeeding. succeeding is, in itself, a good thing. don't get me wrong about that. but making a difference, that should be the ultimate aim of everyone. the world cannot function with just one person, that is even a biological fact. so why just concentrate on only getting money at work, and saying that earning is enough? or to get that borderline A1 and be satisfied with it. push forward. so you're good in math? try going one step further, use your skills to better the world. a social butterfly? learn to bring ppl together, and create peace. think of being more than just that straight A student, and you'll enjoy yourself more. everyone, i believe has a vocation. sure, i may sound a tad but idealistic here. but you know what? i believe its better than being indifferent to all those things going around in the world. as it is, entire cultures are being wiped out, artefacts being lost, parts of history we never had a chance to discover are being lost as we sit down mugging or working in some office. the world is changing before our very eyes, not for the better, but for the worst. global warming, the polar icecaps melting. its is predicted that within the next few centuries, the world will have another ice age. the cycle is renewing itself. and did we even notice? or bother when it was warned by scientists? or did we just turn away, not believing or taking a single measure until it is too late, and the damage has been done? and are we going to be so stupid so as to do it again? precious few noted and tried to persuade the rest, but in vain. sure, we're now better off technology wise and also comfort. but why is it that we remain insecure? there are tribes in the Amazon, and also in South America as well as numerous other places where ppl live simply, yet they aren't insecure. they face so many more pressing problems compared to those who've been urbanised. starvation, disease, plague, and their worst problem : being URBANIZED and losing their culture and way of life. and when war or unrest breaks out, and they are just adapting to the urbanized world, we turn our backs on them and shove them out of the way, leaving them to struggle on their own. is this what technology has done to us? has the violence around us, the wars the bombings and the creation of weapons of mass destruction made us indifferent to cruelty? money talks in this world, there's no denying that. and countries push to be at the top, get the largest revenue, attain rankings of the countries with the top three GDP. yet, in their quest to be the best, they haven't really done much to make a difference or help those who really needed it. and isn't it ironic that we call the UN and peacekeepers, as well as those precious few who venture out to stay with those unfortunate Afican kids with AIDs stupid or crazy for doing something that does not give them any profits, but we call those who help someone who fainted on the road side in a city a 'good samaritan'? why is it that the deeds that really mattered and their plea to join them in making this world a better place went unnoticed. thats that its bcome, this world. a sad sad place. somehow, i still feel thankful that i'm here, and not in the future, a time when things might be worse. i shiver to think of that. studying, it is a good thing to do. so is working. aiming to be the best, sure, its worth the effort, but at the same time, on the quest for excellence, we ought to remember what we're fighting for, and have that in mind. it is not money that rules this world, its the ppl with money that do. but at the same time, it's us, the ppl that are under their rule that are making their empire, their state, their kingdom, and developing it. push them to do what is necessary to make a difference. and if they don't, do it yourself. it may be small, but just try. being kind is worth it. really.
well, i got what i was bothering me for the past few days out of my head. hopefully i can study in peace now. i just hope no more such thoughts bother me right now. i do have a vocation. i feel its right for me to be a messenger. a messenger by using my words, and the arts to show what is best in life. what ought to be appreciated. culture, history, feelings, emotions, literature, music, dance, art. it may seem stupid to say so in this age of science, but i do feel honestly, from the bottom of my heart that its the right way to go. so, i'm different. let me be that way, and you might actually see that it goes a long way in a world where ppl are so busy that they hardly look to the past and see what's been under our nose, yet escaped us. so many many things happen around us. do we even notice?
10/13/2004 10:33:00 ap.