I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
maanantaina, lokakuuta 11, 2004
in pain
sitting here in pain. didn't go to school today bcos of cramps. severe cramps. from what i hear i didn't miss much except for perhaps the teachers nagging as well as the papers. can always see them tml, no hurry. mr tan didn't turn up today either so yea, i didn't really miss much. i'm searching for painkillers. apparently the panadol consumption in my house has sky rocketed and so there is no panadol when someone needs it badly. darn. water retention. and it hurts. did some ss in the morning, and finished off eng hw. goin to finish up chem tys, however i don't have the guidebook and so i can't do that hw yet. sigh. and i have that ah ma smell as well. the smell of an ah ma that is particularly fond of ointments. if not, the closest i can describe the smell is very much like hospitals or old age homes. minus the more foul smells, you'll find that the air smells of medicated oil. which is what i smell like. don't know what to say.
my sis friends stacey and jasmine are over to study. giggly bunch of kiddos. well, i just thank gdness they're in the room and i'm outside in agony. ok, minus the agony part. that i am NOT thankful for.
so ms huda managed to make a smile dance across my face yesterday. we had some fun. well, thing is that huda is terrified of horror movies and i didn't tell her what i was going to do with her until we were a safe distance from her house so she couldn't bolt back in through the door. she then found out that my top secret mission was to trick her into watching a horror movie. THE EXORCIST. my, my aren't we getting evil? but, unfortunately since she was LATE and she had to meet the others at 7 and the earliest slot we could get was 6.30 we gave it a miss. (i'll get you next time huda *evil laugh*) and headed over to her all time fave place to treat her to a meal instead. popeye's chicken. heh. so well, we ran sorta late and we were hurrying like mad but we reached the mrt control station at tampines arnd 7.15. still late, but not that late. usual gang was there. ama, dan, ruz, nadia, and then fadzie. (fadz i soo miss you) many hugs exchanged and also a hearty congrats to daniel who just got his very own french horn. *claps hands* yay, good for you. fadz is getting a clarinet if she does well for her exams so i pray that you do well k? semoga berjaya. also very surprised and pleased to see how much ruzaini had changed. very very muscular now. and also doing fine, by the looks of it. he left early for some other place. *awwww*
headed straight to swensens. was ama's treat, and she got an earthquake and some other side dishes. talk talk and crap crap as per normal. i missed those ppl terribly and its only now that i realized. well, it was great to see them again. huda got an ice cream cake and i left earlier cos it was getting late. went home alone. it was scary walking alone in the park. darn. i gotten used to that route cos of a particular someone whom i study eng ith *erhm erhm* well, sorry i couldn't make it to airport yesterday, but i was having a splitting head ache. been sick these days. dunno why. leaky nose, the works. sigh.
by the time i reached home i was shagged. still stayed up a lil to hang arnd and ask how the kenduri went. still feeling tired and oh, did i mention I'M IN PAIN. guess i made my pt clear. will some one get me panadol please?
dang, i feel sick. hope it passes before tml.
10/11/2004 09:18:00 ap.