I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
keskiviikkona, syyskuuta 15, 2004
prac
musical moments. i missed it. but its ok, i will be going for SP band concert this Fri. its at SP (duh) so we're treating it as sorta a reunion. meet all the seniors and stuff. anyone willing to go with me from here? i have to meet huda at Dover mrt at arnd 1900 so ya, those going, can like, tell me or something and make arrangements if we can go frm PR mrt together. thanks
well. practical today. remember alot of things, but the results of my experiment were record-unfriendly, so i don't know if i messed that up. other than that, it was ok. and i managed to do alright, i guess.
veli, rest assured i'll find you when i think its the right time. well, i don't really want to bother you, and i think i'll bore you half to death anyways. bsides, you're sick, and you ought to concentrate on getting well, so you can tackle the coming exams well. i quote you ok? " i'm a good o level student" live up to the expectations you gave yourself.
mina en ole oikee iloinen nyt. voin sanoo etta olen surullinen. mutta mina pidan sita salainen. ihan kun mina olen pidannyt paljon salaisuuta kauan aikaan. anna anteeksi, mun rakas, jos mina en voi tehda mitaan. mina olen vahan eksynyt, ja en tietaa miten mina voin nakee minun oma kadet eesa kuin se on niin pimea. se on kylma. olen yksin. ja ei ole yks ihminen joka voi auttaa minua nyt. anteeksi kun mina puhun vahan murretta. en voi tehda mitan siista asiasta. miks mie olen niin tyhma? niin holmo? typera. mailma olis parempi jos mie en ole taalla. miksi mina? Jumala, autta mun velit, kun he ovat hyvat ihmiset ja heilla on hyvat sydammet. mun velit ovat tehnyt niin paljon minulle, ja en tieta miteen mina voin kiitta heita. rakastan te kaikki, mun rakas velit. *itkee*
9/15/2004 02:52:00 ip.